- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Breath. Remind yourself you’re not you’re thoughts. Intrusive thoughts literally feed off of your fear and it can feel overwhelming when you truly believe this could be your own thoughts. The only thing I can say is labelling these thoughts as intrusive is helpful but also even though you aren’t a pedophile sometimes I find it helpful to just say so what? So what if I am? It’s just a way of removing the anxiety and power the ocd holds. Hope you’re okay xx
Thank you 🥺 I’ve just had these thoughts before and my therapist told me it’s literally just me observing other people’s bodies as humans do and it means nothing. But this time feels so wrong Bc it was accompanied by the intrusive thought. I’m trying to ignore it and not give it power, but it’s so hard.
@Lovepurple Yep yep yep already lived that a long time ago hard tho! First of all I like your post because you give details about your intrusive thoughts it's better than "I feel so bad today" without anything behind it (don't want to be judgmental about these posts but to me it's important to give details, because we can have the context about the issue the person is experiencing). The other thing to have in mind is that people having ocds feel a lot about their environment. I think we introject a lot of people's real disease or mean behaviors and bc we lack confidence with ourselves we end up persuading ourselves that we are like those people doing bad stuff FOR REAL, bc even though we don't do any shit we persuade ourselves having the potential to do. Finally after thousands of hours of analysis, the best way I found out in order to get rid of this ocd was saying to myself "yes that's true I looove that" each time my OCD told me I would be able to do awful things and that I wanted to back out from it. It was really hard bc I was really afraid of being what I was being afraid of. And finally I was absolutely right : the most you back out from your ocd and the most you freak out and end up persuading yourself you could do awful things. And the most I exposed myself mentally or physically (carrying a child like a little girl or boy etc) the most it was clear that it was only a false feeling fed only by my fear to be a pedo.
@Morpheus 75 Thank you so much. Yes. It sucks a lot. I cannot shake that I actually thought that though. It feels so real. I truly cannot tell if that’s a real thought. And it’s building now. Now I’m having even worse thoughts that I’m like “but is that true? Do I think that?” And I know I just need to flip my brain right off and ignore it but it’s so damn hard. Bc it’s like damn…can I see it? Is it true? Idk. 🤦🏻♀️
I wouldn't say that you should flip it off I think that each ocd has to be faced off in its own way and for this one I wouldn't think that you should shut yir brain off. On the contrary I'd rather say that you should "embrace your thoughts" as if you "LOOOOVE her beautiful futur butt she's a beautiful little girl with a greeaaat butt so beautiful that it could turn me on at any time ❤️" (the best way to literraly screw your ocd telling you "you're a pedo". Then your ocd certainly will tell you stuff like "you feel like aroused by it don't you pedo?!!!" Your response to your OCD : " Oooh heaaah I love that I'm a fucking good pedo yammy". Of course the most difficult part is to face off your own questions coming from your ocds. I'm not saying it's nice and easy, I'm just saying I already face this off and I literally KILLED IT acting this way.
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Good shit, good one the pedo ocd it was really hard I was young tho like 17 18 years old. Aw-ful! But I nailed it af! I destroyed it 💪 If you need some pieces of advice don't ever hesitate to drill asking questions about it I'll always answer to you 🙃
My whole life I’ve kind of stared at people’s crotches whenever they’re wearing something revealing a bikini. I feel like I’ve always searched to see if I can see an outline or something or anything because it’s so revealing. It kind of feels like curiosity I don’t know how to describe it. I did this before my OCD got bad and I do this now. I feel scared that I’m doing something I shouldn’t be. I’m scared that I’m doing something perverted. What scares me the most is that about a year ago this happened with my boyfriend sister. She was 15 at the time. I didn’t think much about it. I stared, searched and moved on. But now I really question if I did something awful or if my intentions were perverted. I’m questioning whether it’s okay to even have curiosity about this. Maybe this is normal and people don’t analyze their behavior, I don’t know. I had a theory that this has been a compulsion all along but right now it feels fully out the window. I haven’t been able to stop crying. I really need someone’s input or perspective. Please.
i've been very sad these days, i saw a child on TikTok and i had thoughts calling her hot, it seemed like i liked it and i was very anxious and very scared. i cried a lot, i kept replaying the video several times because it seemed like i was attracted to her and only when i was sure that I wasn't attracted to her i skip the video. but then i went to watch the videos of this kid again to see if i was really attracted or not again and i got nervous about being attracted to her "chest" and i kept looking to see if I was really attracted or not 😭 i wasn't, but one thought scared me a lot, which was "you were only attracted because it looked like an adult's chest." i was very nervous, i cried a lot because of this. I'm not attracted to children, I never have been, why does it seem like i am? i don't want to look at children anymore, im too nervous. i'm not attracted to her, all of this makes me sick and sad, it's all very uncomfortable and scary. but I've been questioning myself a lot about the last thought, i can't stop questioning myself. every time i see a child my brain asks if i'm attracted to them or if i think they're pretty. i can't stop crying (sorry for any mistakes I'm using a translator)
I get thoughts of kids Whever I think or see an image of someone my age, like for example today I saw a bikini pic of a girl my age and it randomly reminded me of a pic of a kid in a bikini I saw a month ago, is this a sign of something bad? My thought usually come up when I think abt someone my age I’m into, and they also feel like I’m purposely thinking of them, I’m not sure if it intrusive thoughts or not, it feels difficult to figure out. These thoughts also don’t distress me anymore, idk if it means something bad or not, but I do not wish to be a pedo, I hope to eventually have a relationship with a girl my age. Alongside all of that, sometimes when I see a kid I get a sense of attraction, but I’m not sure if it is false or not, to me it feels so real, but I don’t wanna be attracted to kids. I’ve just started therapy, I’m currently trying to find a way to get a diagnosis, I really hope I’m not diagnosed as a pedo. Ik that false attraction comes with negative emotion, but I don’t feel negative emotion when I get what I hope is false attraction, I keep trying to figure out if what I’m feeling is false or true because I don’t feel negative emotions, it makes me worried that it’s real and that I really am a pedo. Not looking for reassurance but can someone tell me if these are pure o ocd symptoms or something actually bad?
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