- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Breath. Remind yourself you’re not you’re thoughts. Intrusive thoughts literally feed off of your fear and it can feel overwhelming when you truly believe this could be your own thoughts. The only thing I can say is labelling these thoughts as intrusive is helpful but also even though you aren’t a pedophile sometimes I find it helpful to just say so what? So what if I am? It’s just a way of removing the anxiety and power the ocd holds. Hope you’re okay xx
Thank you 🥺 I’ve just had these thoughts before and my therapist told me it’s literally just me observing other people’s bodies as humans do and it means nothing. But this time feels so wrong Bc it was accompanied by the intrusive thought. I’m trying to ignore it and not give it power, but it’s so hard.
@Lovepurple Yep yep yep already lived that a long time ago hard tho! First of all I like your post because you give details about your intrusive thoughts it's better than "I feel so bad today" without anything behind it (don't want to be judgmental about these posts but to me it's important to give details, because we can have the context about the issue the person is experiencing). The other thing to have in mind is that people having ocds feel a lot about their environment. I think we introject a lot of people's real disease or mean behaviors and bc we lack confidence with ourselves we end up persuading ourselves that we are like those people doing bad stuff FOR REAL, bc even though we don't do any shit we persuade ourselves having the potential to do. Finally after thousands of hours of analysis, the best way I found out in order to get rid of this ocd was saying to myself "yes that's true I looove that" each time my OCD told me I would be able to do awful things and that I wanted to back out from it. It was really hard bc I was really afraid of being what I was being afraid of. And finally I was absolutely right : the most you back out from your ocd and the most you freak out and end up persuading yourself you could do awful things. And the most I exposed myself mentally or physically (carrying a child like a little girl or boy etc) the most it was clear that it was only a false feeling fed only by my fear to be a pedo.
@Morpheus 75 Thank you so much. Yes. It sucks a lot. I cannot shake that I actually thought that though. It feels so real. I truly cannot tell if that’s a real thought. And it’s building now. Now I’m having even worse thoughts that I’m like “but is that true? Do I think that?” And I know I just need to flip my brain right off and ignore it but it’s so damn hard. Bc it’s like damn…can I see it? Is it true? Idk. 🤦🏻♀️
I wouldn't say that you should flip it off I think that each ocd has to be faced off in its own way and for this one I wouldn't think that you should shut yir brain off. On the contrary I'd rather say that you should "embrace your thoughts" as if you "LOOOOVE her beautiful futur butt she's a beautiful little girl with a greeaaat butt so beautiful that it could turn me on at any time ❤️" (the best way to literraly screw your ocd telling you "you're a pedo". Then your ocd certainly will tell you stuff like "you feel like aroused by it don't you pedo?!!!" Your response to your OCD : " Oooh heaaah I love that I'm a fucking good pedo yammy". Of course the most difficult part is to face off your own questions coming from your ocds. I'm not saying it's nice and easy, I'm just saying I already face this off and I literally KILLED IT acting this way.
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Good shit, good one the pedo ocd it was really hard I was young tho like 17 18 years old. Aw-ful! But I nailed it af! I destroyed it 💪 If you need some pieces of advice don't ever hesitate to drill asking questions about it I'll always answer to you 🙃
Hi I just have a few questions! (Im 14 btw) Okay so basically I’m really worried I’ll become a pedo/I already am and I don’t know it yet. I’m also really scared if I SA someone, even tho I don’t want to and I’d never do something like that but I feel like this part of me is saying that I will and it’s really scaring me. I feel so alone and I’m so scared I’m a bad person on the inside and this isn’t ocd and I’m gonna unleash hell on this earth I’m so scared. I’ll get a thought like if I’m walking past someone random it will be like “What if you sa them?” And it scares me so bad I feel horrible for thinking that. Is this apart of it? I feel like I’m always fixated on the topic of sa to check if I would do something like that, I don’t know anymore I just feel like a bad person (btw I have not done anything like that to anyone!)
Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared
How is this OCD? Who with Pocd thinks about a naked child ???? I was over here thinking if I’m actually attracted to kids because I find some of them good looking you know and my little cousin I have thoughts about her too and I was thinking about her naked but I wasn’t aroused or nothing so that’s where I’m confused It was intentional so does that make me a p*do?
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