I had a really bad thought when last night about this little girl. I know it was intrusive but it was sexual in nature. It was something like, when she grows up she’s gonna have a nice butt or something. And I started panicking. I don’t wanna think that. I’m not a pedophile. I am not attracted to kids, I know this. But what if the thought is true? What if I really saw her and thought that? I’m in such distress right now. What if I really thought she had a nice butt??? And was gonna grow up to have a nice one?? I know this is probably OCD, but what if I really think that? The more I analyze it, the more I’m like, well yeah for a little girl maybe she did? And it is sending me into an even further panic. Im not sure what to do. Any advice?

Thank you 🥺 I’ve just had these thoughts before and my therapist told me it’s literally just me observing other people’s bodies as humans do and it means nothing. But this time feels so wrong Bc it was accompanied by the intrusive thought. I’m trying to ignore it and not give it power, but it’s so hard.

@Lovepurple Yep yep yep already lived that a long time ago hard tho! First of all I like your post because you give details about your intrusive thoughts it's better than "I feel so bad today" without anything behind it (don't want to be judgmental about these posts but to me it's important to give details, because we can have the context about the issue the person is experiencing). The other thing to have in mind is that people having ocds feel a lot about their environment. I think we introject a lot of people's real disease or mean behaviors and bc we lack confidence with ourselves we end up persuading ourselves that we are like those people doing bad stuff FOR REAL, bc even though we don't do any shit we persuade ourselves having the potential to do. Finally after thousands of hours of analysis, the best way I found out in order to get rid of this ocd was saying to myself "yes that's true I looove that" each time my OCD told me I would be able to do awful things and that I wanted to back out from it. It was really hard bc I was really afraid of being what I was being afraid of. And finally I was absolutely right : the most you back out from your ocd and the most you freak out and end up persuading yourself you could do awful things. And the most I exposed myself mentally or physically (carrying a child like a little girl or boy etc) the most it was clear that it was only a false feeling fed only by my fear to be a pedo.

@Morpheus 75 Thank you so much. Yes. It sucks a lot. I cannot shake that I actually thought that though. It feels so real. I truly cannot tell if that’s a real thought. And it’s building now. Now I’m having even worse thoughts that I’m like “but is that true? Do I think that?” And I know I just need to flip my brain right off and ignore it but it’s so damn hard. Bc it’s like damn…can I see it? Is it true? Idk. 🤦🏻‍♀️