I had a really bad thought when last night about this little girl. I know it was intrusive but it was sexual in nature. It was something like, when she grows up she’s gonna have a nice butt or something. And I started panicking. I don’t wanna think that. I’m not a pedophile. I am not attracted to kids, I know this. But what if the thought is true? What if I really saw her and thought that? I’m in such distress right now. What if I really thought she had a nice butt??? And was gonna grow up to have a nice one?? I know this is probably OCD, but what if I really think that? The more I analyze it, the more I’m like, well yeah for a little girl maybe she did? And it is sending me into an even further panic. Im not sure what to do. Any advice?

Kristy

Date posted: 4y

Breath. Remind yourself you’re not you’re thoughts. Intrusive thoughts literally feed off of your fear and it can feel overwhelming when you truly believe this could be your own thoughts. The only thing I can say is labelling these thoughts as intrusive is helpful but also even though you aren’t a pedophile sometimes I find it helpful to just say so what? So what if I am? It’s just a way of removing the anxiety and power the ocd holds. Hope you’re okay xx

OCDewewew

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

Thank you 🥺 I’ve just had these thoughts before and my therapist told me it’s literally just me observing other people’s bodies as humans do and it means nothing. But this time feels so wrong Bc it was accompanied by the intrusive thought. I’m trying to ignore it and not give it power, but it’s so hard.

Morpheus 75

Date posted: 4y

@Lovepurple Yep yep yep already lived that a long time ago hard tho! First of all I like your post because you give details about your intrusive thoughts it's better than "I feel so bad today" without anything behind it (don't want to be judgmental about these posts but to me it's important to give details, because we can have the context about the issue the person is experiencing). The other thing to have in mind is that people having ocds feel a lot about their environment. I think we introject a lot of people's real disease or mean behaviors and bc we lack confidence with ourselves we end up persuading ourselves that we are like those people doing bad stuff FOR REAL, bc even though we don't do any shit we persuade ourselves having the potential to do. Finally after thousands of hours of analysis, the best way I found out in order to get rid of this ocd was saying to myself "yes that's true I looove that" each time my OCD told me I would be able to do awful things and that I wanted to back out from it. It was really hard bc I was really afraid of being what I was being afraid of. And finally I was absolutely right : the most you back out from your ocd and the most you freak out and end up persuading yourself you could do awful things. And the most I exposed myself mentally or physically (carrying a child like a little girl or boy etc) the most it was clear that it was only a false feeling fed only by my fear to be a pedo.

OCDewewew

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 4y

@Morpheus 75 Thank you so much. Yes. It sucks a lot. I cannot shake that I actually thought that though. It feels so real. I truly cannot tell if that’s a real thought. And it’s building now. Now I’m having even worse thoughts that I’m like “but is that true? Do I think that?” And I know I just need to flip my brain right off and ignore it but it’s so damn hard. Bc it’s like damn…can I see it? Is it true? Idk. 🤦🏻‍♀️

Morpheus 75

Date posted: 4y

I wouldn't say that you should flip it off I think that each ocd has to be faced off in its own way and for this one I wouldn't think that you should shut yir brain off. On the contrary I'd rather say that you should "embrace your thoughts" as if you "LOOOOVE her beautiful futur butt she's a beautiful little girl with a greeaaat butt so beautiful that it could turn me on at any time ❤️" (the best way to literraly screw your ocd telling you "you're a pedo". Then your ocd certainly will tell you stuff like "you feel like aroused by it don't you pedo?!!!" Your response to your OCD : " Oooh heaaah I love that I'm a fucking good pedo yammy". Of course the most difficult part is to face off your own questions coming from your ocds. I'm not saying it's nice and easy, I'm just saying I already face this off and I literally KILLED IT acting this way.

Morpheus 75

Date posted: 4y

faced it off*

Morpheus 75

Date posted: 4y

Good shit, good one the pedo ocd it was really hard I was young tho like 17 18 years old. Aw-ful! But I nailed it af! I destroyed it 💪 If you need some pieces of advice don't ever hesitate to drill asking questions about it I'll always answer to you 🙃

Anonymousssssss

Date posted: 24w

Can someone please offer words of advice :(

Why are things so real the first time they’re in my mind and then when I think about it later it’s easier for me to be like wtf?? I was watching a movie earlier and the young girl had developed more in the chest area than the last movie and I felt the desire to check her out so I did. Then later I let myself imagine her having sex and I liked it. But now looking back I’m like ew. The boys in the movie have also developed as the movie went on and I couldn’t help but think that in their real life they’ve probably woken up to boners and s*men and stuff. And looking back it’s just ugh. Idk if it’s sexual relevance but I genuinely let myself indulge in these thoughts and groinal responses and I remember thinking to myself I don’t want to be attracted to little kids and how do I stop myself (everyone has attractive qualities so in younger boys I see man like qualities). Idk I need help. I wouldn’t type this out if I truly believe I was messed up but I’m still scared

Idontknow

Date posted: 24w

Help please

How is this OCD? Who with Pocd thinks about a naked child ???? I was over here thinking if I’m actually attracted to kids because I find some of them good looking you know and my little cousin I have thoughts about her too and I was thinking about her naked but I wasn’t aroused or nothing so that’s where I’m confused It was intentional so does that make me a p*do?

Em2003

Date posted: 21w

Pls input, I haven’t panicked this hard in months

My whole life I’ve kind of stared at people’s crotches whenever they’re wearing something revealing a bikini. I feel like I’ve always searched to see if I can see an outline or something or anything because it’s so revealing. It kind of feels like curiosity I don’t know how to describe it. I did this before my OCD got bad and I do this now. I feel scared that I’m doing something I shouldn’t be. I’m scared that I’m doing something perverted. What scares me the most is that about a year ago this happened with my boyfriend sister. She was 15 at the time. I didn’t think much about it. I stared, searched and moved on. But now I really question if I did something awful or if my intentions were perverted. I’m questioning whether it’s okay to even have curiosity about this. Maybe this is normal and people don’t analyze their behavior, I don’t know. I had a theory that this has been a compulsion all along but right now it feels fully out the window. I haven’t been able to stop crying. I really need someone’s input or perspective. Please.

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