Anonymous
- Date posted
- 4y
hannahflorencehannahflorence
- Date posted
- 4y
Hey, I am actually suspected autistic and getting a screening. Just before I get into it I just wanted to say I also feel like "I'm faking it" and I a making myself fit into symptoms to almost "label" myself. But please don't worry, feelings are valid and u rnt faking it. Some symptoms: Mimicking people to be persiebed as more "normal" (this can be unconscience) Hyper-fixating on certain subjects or topics, and feeling like you need to know everything about them (this can be multiple topics) Being very emotionally drained after a social day due to masking Sensory issues (smells, noises (even having issues with hearing people breathing and chewing), textures, lights etc.) Not being able to pick up on subtle lies, sarcasm, or tell when someone is joking (usually it's easier to tell when it's more obvious, because for example sarcasm whne obvious has a more exaggerated tonal change but when it's ubtle ti's a lot harder to point out for autistics) Sometimes having trouble with facial expressions Habing trouble with telling if someone is mad or sad at you Being the "dopey" or "Naive" friend Not baing able to tell "small" emotions apart from "big" emotions (e.g. "Big" emotions of anger, "small" emotions of contentment/joy) Floating into your own world Finding it hard to make and keep friendships Feeling since you were small you were "an alien" trying to fit into a "human" world, that wasn't designed for you. Having a knack for poetry (I know it's a bit out there) Being extremely shy when you were smaller, and excluded from others Having a different accent to the one you grew up hearing (autistics often develop their own accent, rather then copy like neurotipical children do) As a child finding eye contact hard As an adult or teen finding eye contact hard (even though autistic women find ways of learning when and how to give eye contact, some of us can give too much or too little or just enough, it depends) Feeling as a small child u "thought" differently or you were more mature and sensible, and the other children could understand you Exploding when you came home as a child or even now, because of the internalised feelings (as a child this could mean tantrums or hurting siblings, as a Treen this could mean anxiety attacks/burn out, as an adult this could mean panic attacks etc, basically anything that released a lot of pent up emotion u couldn't express becauee you were pretending to be normal) Adding tone to your voice (can be unconscience) There are more but here are some I particularly relate yoy and remember I do want to add that maybe you don't relate to all but every autistic person is different and there is still a change u r one even if u don't fit the stereotype or have for example issues with eye contact or that many sensory issues. Everyone presents different and it's how u feel that counts. You should do more research on them. And another thing is even if u can't remember more then a few instances were a certain symptom happened, you might just not be able to recognise when it happened in other situations and this shouldnt discourage u. I went my whole life feeling so alone and different but I couldn't put my finger on it, that's how it is for most autistic women and masking is a big part of y. Yoy should do more research into hat specifically I hope I could help you, sending so much love <3
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