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I had this same experience with the movie human centipede! š¬ I personally think itās OCD I but omg itās awful... I canāt watch disturbing movies, I never recover!!!
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Omg thats the movie i was referring to!!!!!! Holy shit. Did you end up watching it� Idk what to do i kinda wanna just get over the fear by watching the 2nd and 3rd but i hate it so much and im shaking thinking about it
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@E Also just u sure if that would be engaging in my compulsions or not. I hate this so much
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If you could help me and provide some answers for me that would be great ššš i feel hopeless
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Yeah I watched that at camp when I was in grade school and had to go to a therapist because I would constantly think about it and would avoid the basement
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@kitkatbar How did your therapist advise you get over it? I guess my issue is more like i was too scared to watch it when i first heard about it, it resurfaced into my life when i was older, i watched it and wasnt a big deal but now i feel like the need to watch the other two
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@E Just by exposureānot by watching the other 2, just to constantly ignore the fear and just sit in the basement so I could see nothing would happen. It got better over time and I now donāt really think about it much or am afraid by it
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@kitkatbar Thats great! Congrats to you :) im just confused as mine isnt really much so the fear of the movieā¦its moreso like this urge/need to watch it to see how gruesome it is or if its really worse than i thought in my head. Its like a mixture of fear and curiosity and obsession. My head is about to burst i want to stop this loop ahahaha
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@E If it feels like an urge itās probably a compulsion... Iād say itās best not to do it.
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I mean if your distressed about it then ya it might be OCD. I have a hard time relating to this because I love horror movies and watch them all the time. But it might be a good exposure to watch maybe 10 minutes and then walk away and not look up the plot or any of the other compulsions you are doing. Also remember that if the therapist isnāt an OCD specialist then they might not (probably dont) know what they are taking about. That could explain the difference in answers.
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Hey, so idk if I have ocd, I would like to think Iām a very self aware person but I donāt wanna self diagnose at all, lmk what you guys think. So pretty much my whole life since I was young I remember having irrational fears im sure it was all trauma induced but when I was a kid I thought my father was poisoning me until I asked him, he started crying and was so shocked that I could ever even think that, my parents broke up when I was legit fresh out the womb, mom worked two jobs and disciplined me, dad let me do whatever on the weekends and got me snacks so I was obsessed with him so obsessed that it was mandatory for me to kiss his picture 20x everyday before school. Growing up I always felt followed by cameras or like someone out there was recording me waiting for me to do something embarrassing to expose me in front of the whole world and my life was over š¤£š¤£ I thought my abusive ex bf was stalking me through my I phone camera after we broke up and it would truly stress me out, it made me believe that it was the reason he never reached out again bc I probably looked ugly in the camera he was stalking me through. If I fall out with a friend Ill over analyze everything to see if I did anything wrong and god forbid while Iām self reflecting I realize I did something wrong I feel like an evil person, verbatim the people I fall out with is bc theyāve done me wrong in some way and it has to b something hurtful or repeated mistakes for me to really stay away for good, so Iāll beat myself up for making mistakes with another person whoās made the same amount of mistakes if not more and in most cases I always fall short, and this when I question if itās ocd or Iām just to self aware and see the ugly in me bc Iām not perfect and itās just makes me feel so unsettled but again thatās a normal feeling and the next step is to forgive yourself and do better moving forward, not obsess over it like your trying to convince yourself youāre a good person. Iām also hot tempered and will say hurtful things when Iām mad Iām definitely a crash out in the way, you push my bottoms way too many times and I will shred you, and Iāll say things ik will hurt you and thatās just so low, then the anger goes away and I have to face the guilt, which makes my āocdā 100x worse, it almost feels like I have to do everything right to not trigger it yet again I donāt have the self control to do it all right, I actually have a lot bpd tendencies again not diagnosing but Iām just trying to understand my brain. I worry about dying, getting a terminal illness. uti turning into kidney infection then into cancer kind of thing, knowing that life in general can b tragic is so scary to me, like what will be my story? What will be my life experience?. I believe that people see right through me and discuss it amongst each other, I always tell myself I am not that important but I canāt seem to shake it off sometimes. When I would break up with my ex I would have pre written paragraphs ready to b send if he ever decided to reach back and I would do this to make sure I didnāt forget a single thought, that every point i felt I need to prove was there, and that bothers me bc do I want win an argument or fix the issue. All of these feelings make me feel so pathetic and embarrassed people move on with their lives and Iām still stuck on something that happened 3 yrs ago. Then Iāll get manic get a tattoo, change my hair, go out clubbing do what I can to b the sexy young girl that I am and it helps in the moment but it worsens my mental after the euphoria is gone. Iām currently staying home, not going out, have only 1 friend so I feel like ocd progressively got worse now, I donāt remember it getting this bad in a while. lmk what you guys think donāt judge or think Iām embarrassing Iām actually so cool and if have to convince you Iām cool I will LMFAOO no but fr help
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So for as long as Iāve been alive Iāve loved horror/ thriller movies and books. I really only enjoy reading thriller books. Since my harm ocd hit I have slowly started back reading thriller again, but I have to check for triggers before each one I read. Thereās been a few books that I was really loving that I had to stop reading because something that would trigger my ocd would come up ( my theme is going crazy becoming dangerous , schizophrenia etc ) so if a character in a book starts hearing voices or something, I get so anxious. I want to be able to read and watch horror / thrillers again. Do I simply need to just continue reading / watching and sit with the anxiety?
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Hi guys! I had really bad harm ocd about 2 years ago and I went through therapy and eventually got really good at handling it when it would pop up. The other day, I was scrolling on TikTok and came across a girl talking about a guy who was presenting a lot of schizophrenic symptoms but no one paid attention and got him help, he was having a lot of delusions, hallucinating, thinking everyone was out to get him, thought he was Jesus and his dad was the president and ended up doing horrific things. The day after that, I was dealing with some work drama and had the thought of āwhat if all my coworkers are against me and trying to get me firedā. That really stressed me out, cause I donāt normally think about them like that and I went down a rabbit hole of thinking that was the beginning of me developing schizophrenia, ended up googling stuff all night, taking tests, crying and seeking reassurance. I had a thought the other day āyour dad is the presidentā, this one didnāt stress me out as bad as I knew it was just the video I had seen and it was an intrusive thought about it, and I also didnāt believe it. Today I was with some friends and I got a prize at a place we went and it said ālonelyā on it. I do have my moments of feeling lonely and this week has been specifically trying so I had a thought like āoh someoneās out to get me cause I got thisā. I know this isnāt logical and it wouldnāt make sense to just randomly get it if someone was truly after me and it was just a stupid prize at a random place, anyone couldāve gotten it. Im just struggling a lot with schizophrenic OCD and thinking Iām in the pre stages of it. In my good moments, I donāt think I am at all and it was all just sparked from the video I watched but in my bad moments, these thoughts feel real!! They really stress me out and make me feel like Iām going to lose my mind causing me to lose my job/ end up in a psych hospital/ never live a normal life/ end up alone, never see me my loved ones/ hurt my loved ones. I just want to feel normal and not like Iām about to lose my mind and everything I care about. Please help!!! Anyone else going through something similar and can help me get through this!
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