I really need someones opinion about the situation i am going through and if its even OCD or not. Please help me. I was traumatized by this horror movie in freshmen year of high school and ruminated over it for about a month, i didnt watch it just kind of peaked around it causing me so much distress. The obession just kind of went away and i got over it. Fast forward to 2019 of december (i was 25 at that time), i got abnormally high with my bf and i thought about that movie and it gave me a panic attack. Ive been since obsessing over the movie, like looking up the plot, debating if i should watch it or not, distressing about it, telling myself its not real, etc. for about 1.5 years now.. there are now 3 sequels to that movie and i actually watched the first one and i am now obsessing over the 2nd and 3rd one. My question is - is this just a re surfacing childhood fear that i probably should get over or is it OCD…? Ive had different therapists tell me numerous things and its just giving me more anxiety and i feel like i even developed ocd because i kept telling myself i have it. Please please please help me.

Omg thats the movie i was referring to!!!!!! Holy shit. Did you end up watching it…? Idk what to do i kinda wanna just get over the fear by watching the 2nd and 3rd but i hate it so much and im shaking thinking about it

@E Also just u sure if that would be engaging in my compulsions or not. I hate this so much

If you could help me and provide some answers for me that would be great 😭😭😭 i feel hopeless

Yeah I watched that at camp when I was in grade school and had to go to a therapist because I would constantly think about it and would avoid the basement

@kitkatbar How did your therapist advise you get over it? I guess my issue is more like i was too scared to watch it when i first heard about it, it resurfaced into my life when i was older, i watched it and wasnt a big deal but now i feel like the need to watch the other two

@E Just by exposure—not by watching the other 2, just to constantly ignore the fear and just sit in the basement so I could see nothing would happen. It got better over time and I now don’t really think about it much or am afraid by it

@kitkatbar Thats great! Congrats to you :) im just confused as mine isnt really much so the fear of the movie…its moreso like this urge/need to watch it to see how gruesome it is or if its really worse than i thought in my head. Its like a mixture of fear and curiosity and obsession. My head is about to burst i want to stop this loop ahahaha

@E If it feels like an urge it’s probably a compulsion... I’d say it’s best not to do it.