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I just wanted to say—i am also an educator. Yay for teachers with OCD. 💕 sending you love
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Thank you! Right back at you! If I let myself, I’d never sleep just trying to prepare the “perfect” lessons because of OCD. But luckily, I now also know if I don’t sleep, the “perfect” lesson plan will be completely useless. It’s just another thing for us OCD sufferers to balance, but getting to teach makes fighting the OCD so worth it! Here’s to us both/all getting to enjoy the best parts of the best job! 💜
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So so true. I’m starting my 5th year this fall, and I feel like only this past year was I able to ease up on myself a bit with my lesson planning.
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Even my dog is getting flustered, but maybe I should follow suit and let out a big sigh like he does every time my husband clatters around.
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Are these things that are due tomorrow for school or work? In my opinion those take priority over household chores. Does he help with any of these household chores or is he complaining about them, expecting you to do them? Try talking to him, and explain that you have things that are due tomorrow and right now those are at the top of your list of things to do, and that as soon as you're done you can help him with the chores.
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Yes! The things at the top of my list are to prepare for teaching my classes, so kinda work and school. And this week will be the longest one for me yet. Last week by the 3rd day of classes, I was fighting off some creeping illnesses that debilitate me when I am too stressed and don’t sleep enough, so it’s imperative that I spend extra time before this upcoming full week to prepare more fully. Plus, if I barely have time to sleep because of lesson planning, teaching, and all the other administrative tasks, there is no way I’ll have time to even maintain any bit of a clean house! He does help a lot with our household chores. (He didn’t used to as much, but he’s also so happy that I’m working so much.). The problem is, some stuff he either hasn’t paid attention to how or where it goes before or it’s truly “my” stuff/mess. Now, a lot of that gets mixed in with “our” mess, but I understand his confusion. Though it would also help me if he at least told me he moved some of that, especially before he forgets where he put it, so I knew it still needed tending to. He and I chatted a few times, and his energy went from mopey to working, but then he sounded like a stressed out elephant who’s not aware of how he’s stomping or slamming things. Oddly, what’s helped the most right now is that after he cleaned a kitchen counter, he had a drink explode on it. This made him stomp more as he re-cleaned it. But then he knocked a drink over after recleaning it. That let him realize he did need to “pump the breaks” beyond just me trying to calmly talk it through with him. It also helped that he saw our dog was stressing too at how noisily and booming he was. While he cares about me more than any other creature on the planet, it’s sometimes hard to hear what’s essentially “calm down”. So luckily, the universe gave him some hints that didn’t come from me. Thank you so much for caring and your suggestions. While today is starting to look better, this is something that can often creep up on us, especially now that I’m working more. 💜
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My all-consuming compulsion is to coddle someone who shows opposition to my boundaries. My boyfriend and I love each other dearly. In fact, he's going to propose soon. But we're working through some really difficult things. When conversations get difficult for him, or he feels the slightest bit of guilt, he totally freezes. He can't talk or make eye contact for awhile. I've been incredibly compassionate about his coping mechanism and his needs (he grew up in an emotionally abusive household), but at the same time, I have needs that must be met, too. The conversations in which he freezes up are ALWAYS ones in which I'm expressing discomfort/hurt about something. What I NEED is to feel validated, to have the space to feel hurt/uncomfortable WITHOUT judgement. Because I am super attentive to him and always ALWAYS validate his hurt, even if it affects me personally. But whether it's big or small, he KEEPS getting really hurt and affected by the things I bring up. His mom is not nice to me, she hasn't been since we met. He's not responsible for her actions, but he IS responsible for defending me when his mom is being super judgemental and rejected me outright, multiple times, even though she didn't even know who I was. I just automatically wasn't good enough. I should be able to trust my boyfriend with valid concerns of mine/expect him to apologize when he's caused discomfort, and he unintentionally invalidates me by guilt-tripping me like crazy. And I've talked to him about this stuff, which is SO HARD. I explain what is and isn't helpful. I brought up therapy, because I can't make him go, but he says he's been trying to ease off his coping response for years to no avail. For this and many other reasons I think he needs professional help (I'm seeing a therapist myself. We both got chronic mental illness that needs addressing somehow). I explained my feelings, I explained what I need. He's starting to try harder to give my emotions space, and say things that validate me. I appreciate it cuz I know the freezing response is something he's trying to fight. It's SO HARD for me not to fawn. My OCD is screaming at me, telling me that I HAVE TO accommodate my boyfriend's feelings, oh I must have hurt him SO BAD, oh imagine how horrible things will be if I DON'T give him reassurance!! But this isn't about him. These conversations with him start because a boundary of MINE has been crossed!! Even if he has a whiny reaction, or has a freezing response that stems from trauma. It STILL causes me too much emotional distress and places blame on me in an unfair way. For example (this is a BRIEF explanation), I've made it clear that I don't want dogs. I've never even had dogs and he knows this. And my boyfriend got really pouty after I reiterated this once, because he thought his dog back home would come live with us after we got married. Mind you, he's NEVER brought this up with me before. I had no idea he wanted his dog to move in with us. The dog has only ever lived at his parents' house. His parents assumed I'd be fine taking on the responsibility of an OLD, SMELLY DOG!!! WITHOUT EVEN ASKING ME!!! And when I explained my frustration about this assumption to my boyfriend while ALSO sweetly acknowledging how SPECIAL his dog is to him, he broke down and shut down!! It's SO FRUSTRATING when he does that, it's so stressful, it's SUCH a burden on me when my boyfriend doesn't have the capacity to validate my feelings the way I do his! Holding back and not compulsively fawning is SO HARD!!!! But I gotta stand firm---it's NOT fair that I have to edit my true feelings because he's not equipped to be more emotionally present for me.
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