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In a way ? I feel regret when I lie to people (I used to be a chronic liar ) even if its someone I dont know , if I give any impression of something that is inauthentic it doesn't feel right , even though logically i dont have to air out truths to strangers and I shouldnt , still gets to me and gives me anxiety
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Intresting- does the anxiety ever turn into ocd?.
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It has with lies i have told people , sometimes I obsessively confess and then worry they didn't understand what I was saying , and confess again and again . Like making sure they get every detail of the truth even things that don't really matter. It hasn't happened in a while , but i definitely feel heavy compulsions to make sure people always 100% understand my meaning and thought process cause im afraid of being inauthentic or accidently lying again . Even if i just add a little detail i have the urge to confess i exaggerated. So for me I guess its more real event too . I do the compulsions so quickly thought that I dont let the anxiety sit , which is something I heavily need to work on . How does it manifest for you ?
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That sounds tough. For me, its ocd about a date I went on. I was tense, uncomfortable, not present, not 'myself' and have ocd about how I appeared to this person and whether they think im boring as a result. Its based around misrepresenting myself. Ill compulse by replaying the date and correcting it in my head. Its a bloody nightmare! I never feel guilty though as what I did cant really be catorgorized as 'bad' as such, just so much regret!
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Yeah dude its awkward ! I used to have social anxiety and now i have ocd so its hard to understand what reactions come from what! But trust me you aren't alone , people constantly and consistently replay things in their head over things that could have done differently , or how you would have acted if you could just go back , or just being heavily embarassed or worried about people's perception of you. I still have thoughts about an argument I had in highschool that was embarassing for me and replay other scenarios that could of acted better in my favor ! This was 6 years ago ! You aren't alone in this for sure
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Yes, that sounds like social anxiety. I have social anxiety and that’s normal for me. I’m an awkward nugget 🤣
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Hi. I am going through something really hard right now, and I could use some insight, especially from others who deal with OCD and morality-based spirals. There was a time during a really emotional conversation with my boyfriend when he said something incredibly painful. He said something like he only felt lust for me but did not feel love anymore. I was completely crushed. It felt like everything I believed about our relationship was ripped out from under me. In that moment, I told him that what he said felt like rape. I want to be really clear. I knew even then that it was not a good or accurate comparison. It was not assault. I was trying to express how emotionally violated and broken I felt, and that word came out. I even labeled it directly, not just compared it, and that is what has been haunting me. I feel like I kept going along with it, not because I wanted to lie or manipulate, but because I felt like if I backed down from it, he would not understand the depth of how hurt I was. He didn’t seem to understand any other way. Later, when we tried to be intimate again, I told him not to touch me. And even though a part of me did want closeness, I still felt like I had to react that way, like I had to follow through with what I had said earlier. I wanted so bad for him to understand the impact of his words. That part is killing me. It makes me feel like I was not being authentic, that I was performing a reaction instead of living it. I feel like I acted like a survivor when I was not one, and I hate myself for that. Now, OCD is eating me alive over it. It keeps telling me I am a liar, a manipulator, and someone who cannot be trusted. And it feels so real. But I also know I was hurting. I was not trying to deceive anyone. I was just overwhelmed, desperate to be understood, and probably influenced by years of invalidation from my family over almost everything. I have talked to my boyfriend about it and apologized. He told me he understands and forgives me. But I cannot forgive myself, and I do not know if what I did is forgivable. Has anyone ever been in a similar place? I feel so so awful this was 3 years ago. Now I feel like I can’t trust any of my emotions. I’m analyzing every reaction, past and present, trying to decide if it was “real enough” or if I was somehow dishonest. It feels like OCD has completely hijacked my sense of self. Please help :(
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With real event OCD, I don’t know if any of you feel this way, but do you ever feel that the past event(s) that you ruminate about or constantly obsess about are gonna come up in your future and just absolutely ruin you, that’s how I’ve been feeling for months, it just feels like impending doom, and I hate having to even think that my future would be ruined by what I did as a teenager, and I did some dumb things, that I regret so deeply, I just can’t stop thinking about that.
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