Currently reading about ERP. Is it as hard as it sounds? Lol

Because it’s essentially confronting the thoughts and accepting them instead of trying to convince yourself that you’re the opposite of your thoughts correct?

@Love Exactly! you’re not saying it’s true. You’re saying maybe it is , maybe it will happen in 10 years but I can’t figure it out. I almost canceled multiple times but I promise it’s worth it. For me just understanding ocd in the therapy helped a ton too! Also watch the YouTube sessions by others with ocd those help me

@Justmesadly Okay I gotcha! I’m beginning my journey tonight, not sure who exactly I’m doing my therapy with but I’m going to start getting all of that figured out tonight!

@Love With nocd? I hope your journey goes well! You got this! Give yourself grace

@Justmesadly Not sure yet. I’m calling with my health insurance company to see what resources I have. And I’ll try too! Before I start I need a better attitude cause I have some “who cares” and “I don’t care what happens anymore” kind of thoughts. Not sure if that’s normal 🤷🏻‍♂️

@Love That "I don't care" attitude comes from depression. I would say until you start therapy try some relaxation techniques and also try occupy yourself with more joyful or fun activities. If they take your mind off of this crap even for a few minutes at a time, it can help. Especially with the depression.

@Jbm421 Yeah that makes more sense. I was diagnosed with depression and general anxiety disorder. It really is a bottom less pit of “not caring”. My ocd does limit if I’m allowed to enjoy things sometimes as crazy as that sounds

@Love Oh ok! Well who cares can be good in some ways and areas but not all !

@Justmesadly Yeah my not care though is like “I don’t care if I get better” or when the other people who love me so much around me say that things will be better I’ll think “yeah who cares whatever” which I’m thinking is on the bad side of the “I don’t care” mindset haha

@Love Okay so not a good mindset! You’re definitely correct to fix that before you go to therapy!

@Justmesadly Yes, very tough for some reason and increases my guilt. But I’m gonna try

Okay that’s what I’ve read. Sounds like it’ll be tough at first and then slowly get better

Are u able to regain thinking your own thoughts that you want to think?

@Love Yes but you gotta be careful until you do. It's very easy to fall back into the negative thinking habits. Your normal way of thinking returns but you must be patient and don't get discouraged. Persistence and perseverance are key, especially as you start to heal. You don't want to let a thought or a trigger completely derail you.

@Jbm421 Okay thanks for the help! After 2 years (with a couple incidents almost 8 years ago) I’m getting help soon!

@Love Dude, I've dealt with this crap on n off for 11 years (with varying degrees of intensity) and its only in the last year as it got really bad that I sought help. Best thing for me really. I still got a ways to go and I have alot of bad habits I'm trying to stop (compulsion are habits after all) but I'm much better than I was.

@Jbm421 That’s good to hear man! I myself am at the lowest I’ve ever been, very depressed and feel hopeless

@Love Believe me when I say that I've been in that very same position. Remember two things: 1) despite how hopeless things can seem, there is ALWAYS hope. And 2) There is a Batman quote I always love using: "The Night is darkest just before the dawn, and I promise you the dawn is coming."

@Jbm421 I appreciate that, you’ve got me fired up with that Batman quote haha. That’s like my favorite movie of all time