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You may also be misinterpreting “aroused”. Sometimes I have a strong connection with another male friend and I think that means I am aroused, but it’s actually just me really enjoying hanging out with a friend who I can have fun with. I know you are hurting right now, but don’t try to solve your problem by ending your life. It DOES get better. It takes a while, not trying to sugar coat it, but there is HOPE. Suicide hotline: 800-273-8255
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I feel like a sensation down there and sometimes it last all day. Like I feel like a constant tingly sensation all day and it makes me want to cut off my private parts Bc it's not pleasurable just angonizing.
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@Anonymous That’s called a groinal sensation. I get them too and it used to be REALLY hard for me, I too, has thaw thought to just cut them off. It takes a lot of practice, but now when I get them towards members of the same sex, I try to change activities, go outside, even talk to someone about it. After awhile they happen and you can just move on without thinking about it
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@Jon w/ OCD Ive had this since I was 12 so im convinced. It's so hard. Something deep down in me says im not but people say if you've ever felt aroused you are one. No loop hole and you can't be cured or helped it's like that's how people are born. Like wtf. Why are some people born that way. I hope I'm not
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@Anonymous Me too, I have been dealing with this since I was a teenager. I am happily married to a wonderful woman who is understanding of OCD. This doesn’t last forever. It helped me to not try and label everything. Society tried to label everyone as dumb, smart, gay, straight, no binary, etc. I don’t think that that is healthy. We are all different and are on spectrums of all of these things. In the end, you choose what you want to do.
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First off I want you to know that you’re not alone. 2 . I want you to know that ocd can be very convincing and I know it’s hard to shake but it’s safe to assume this is ocd . I’ve had this theme before so I understand you are not sick you have ocd . In order to get rid of the thoughts you first have to get rid of the disorder . Please don’t hurt yourself it really does get better it just takes time . I’m sure you have a lot to live for still . You are safe and not alone 💗💗
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Is there any way you can message me somehow. I need someone who understands right now. I'm so scared and I don't want to live. I can't bare this
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@Anonymous I don’t think they have messenger here . Do you have Instagram?
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@Anonymous Hope you're ok. I just saw your message. I don't have your type of OCD. Mine is contamination and I saw something red.on an envelope and my world fell apart. The thoughts are only thoughts and the same way I start to sweat and my heart races and panic sets in is my body responding to a thought the same way yours gets aroused by your theme of OCD. Neither are dangerous but it can feel like you're facing a wall and there's no where to go. We can't control our thoughts and our bodies don't know that so we physical responses. There is nothing wrong with you. You have OCD. You're a good person.
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@2621 Thank you so much for saying this it makes me wanna throw up and I can't stop looking stuff up
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Just wanted you to know I too may have felt a little arousal but I know for sure I'm not a pedo. Because I don't go out of my way to look at children or find their body that attractive. But I do feel weird around children. Kudos to you for recognizing your feelings but I think you should give yourself some grace, my friend. The world is cruel and vicious out there, and I commend you for opening up about this. I know it's not easy
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It's been for so many things and I used to want a family but not anymore Bc I'm scared...
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@Anonymous I feel you. I'm only lucky in the sense that I do not care to be around children at all anyway and do not have or wish to have them. I would warn you that parenting is such a taxing responsibility anyway. Trust me I've read so many horror stories about people who thought they wanted children only to be dreadfully mistaken... not trying to scare or talk you out of it but parenting is no joke. In my eyes you are super blessed.
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@angeloflight How do you know 100% you're not one? If you felt something. Aren't you scared?
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@Anonymous Not what?
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@angeloflight A pedo
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@Anonymous Because I know I'm not attracted to children or even wanna be around them. Is that not enough evidence?
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@Anonymous I should stress that people who have these type of thoughts aren't always pedos
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@angeloflight Okay
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@angeloflight Ugh idk. I did too much research and now I'm scared and feel like I actually am. And my Brain has a miss wiring
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@Anonymous I'm really sorry you are feeling this way. I wish there was something I could say to make it better. All I wonder is are you afraid that you may touch a child? Like it's a legitimate fear you have?
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@angeloflight Not even that. I'm just scared I'm a pedo. I won't ever harm a kid Bc I won't get around one but I worry about when I have kids
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@Anonymous Oh ok that's good at least. Yeah worrying you're a pedo on its own can be tough. I know how isolating that must feel. I'm glad you have us to talk to about it. Do you have a therapist by chance?
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@angeloflight No it's really hard to find one in my area who accepts my insurance. I had one but she stopped taking my insurance
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@Anonymous Did you tell her about all of this? If so what did she say?
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@angeloflight She said it's my ocd. And the "arousal" isn't a representation of what I actually desire. But I'm never reassured.
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Sometimes I think " do I like kids?" "Would i get aroused if I saw content with kids?""What if I'm a pedo and cant accept it?" "What if I'm ok with these thoughts?" "What if I'm not distressed enough " "What if I enjoy these thoughts?" , i avoid kids as much as i can, i cant look at them bc I'm scared I'm gonna have some groin like response. I keep testing if I'd get turned on or if I'd have some groinal response to sexual scenarios with kids. Sometimes I think that if I took my life this would be over and i wouldn't have to think about this and i wish i doubted something else instead of things like this. I had similar situations just with different topics such as if i loved or found sexually appealing a guy while in a relationship and i kept asking myself those questions for months and i avoided going to school for weeks and when I went I'd cry and have anxiety attacks. I had it with past actions i obessed over and felt the need to exploit every detail and be honest because otherwise i was being a fraud. I had it for sexual things that happened when i was a child. Im not diagnosed with ocd but should i tell this to my local counselor? Can someone help? Give me advice or tell me anything?
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I feel like a really terrible person right now, I keep replaying this, and no matter what I can’t remember what happened, it’s like my brain is purposely not letting me think about it. Without wasting any more time, I’ll get into it. Basically, I was at Walmart, and looking at cards with My Dad, I saw anime ones, took pictures of them for my sister, even ones that were anime kids, because I did my best to ignore it, so I looked at a Hunter x Hunter card, I stared at the black haired kid, being all like “ I’m glad I’m not having any thoughts about this, I’m glad I’m having normal thoughts and not thinking anything” I felt happy, then as soon as I looked at killua (white haired kid), everything collapsed. I don’t know what happened, my brain won’t let me remember. But I’ll give bits and pieces. I think that I had false attraction, and something in my head, said “oh, I wouldn’t mind being attracted.” “He is attractive, and I’m attracted to him.” “I remember a girl thinking he is attractive and he is” “ It’s not wrong to be attracted” “ I don’t care about his age” .. something along the lines of that, and now I’m panicking super hard, because I’m worried if I said those things, I feel like I ruined my life that I’m a pe//do and deserve nothing, idk what to do, I feel terrible… I remember when I was having the intrusive thoughts, I was panicking and was worrying, but it kept playing out, and I kept hearing things talk, it was drawn out too long, that now I feel convinced that I was saying those things, I tested it too, and I can confirm that I didn’t say that, but why am I still not convinced? I know I wouldn’t say those things, I was hoping the complete opposite would happen. My brain kept making me feel like it wasn’t wrong and it was okay. Maybe that’s why I’m so convinced I did that. I’m just spiraling super bad right now, I don’t know what to do or what to think, I don’t know if I said that or not… even if I did test it, I genuinely just feel like I said it, and I wanted it, because I still feel uncertain, I still feel like I said it, part of me just wants to be like oh I did and so I can move on, not because I agree with it, I just don’t know what else to do… I’m really scared.
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Being exposed to taboo p*rn as young as first grade ruined my life and now ocd is making me pay for it. I have so much guilt for being a child/teen and looking at taboo stuff, and it was all fictional or anime or whatever but it was still so so gross. and I didn't realize It because I had been used to it at so young 🫠 I think what haunts me most is when I was a kid/young teen (like 12-14ish) and didn't have access to p*rn I'd imagine stuff similar to what I'd seen in the art. I can't even believe I'd imagine scenarios involving kid characters or whatever because it had been so normalized to me and I assumed it was normal since it was fiction. I'm 23 now so it's been a decade since I've done anything like that and I've never had the urge to since but still. I've NEVER been attracted to kids or had any urges or anything ever, even when I was addicted. The thought makes me want to vomit, I'd rather die than associate anything sexual with kids/minors and I think people who groom or assault kids are vile. But I still feel like the fact that I imagined stuff similar to the things I read sometimes when I was young is proof I'm a p*do. I don't think people would believe me if I said I'm not. I just feel like I don't deserve to live or that if I do, I'm living a lie. I know 'I was a kid too' but even when I was 13/14 I read/imagined stuff with characters younger than me because I thought it was normal. I'm so disgusted. I've had this theme for so long I'm starting to wonder if ocd is right. I feel too ashamed to tell my therapist.
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