Ok I’m having a serious moment here with my ROCD - can’t get a hold of my bf...lately he’s been too busy with work to talk to me or text me much and it’s really making me panic!!

Try not to ruminate and accept how you’re feeling in the moment and don’t fight it

I USED TO DO THIS! Totally infuriating for all involved - its really important that you don’t message him like that because its a major reassurance seeking compulsion - you need to get on this app and hit the SOS button so you can turn that panic into a positive thing - a step towards recovery. Its completely awful but you really do need to sit with your uncertainties and fears until your brain gets bored. It will get easier over time, but not overnight

I’m sorry you’re struggling right now. You are stronger than this disorder P. Remember that.

Well if he is you get another bf. Trust and communication is everything

It’s my ocd telling me to get out ASAP and end the anxiety

I don’t think you really want out of the relationship because you have stated this before. Don’t let OCD ruin a good thing in your life, it takes too much already.

I feel totally delusional - I know I have no control over him cheating or even knowing if he’s cheating and the lack of certainty is killing me right now

I agree. It is extremely important you don’t compulsively call him and text him repeatedly. Use the app for help if you feel like you can’t resist from engaging in that compulsion.

I know you keep saying that you “can’t just not have OCD” and I understand that. But also know that there Are people who recover from this disorder and are able to go on living a life much less affected by OCD. It does take a lot of hard work though.

I’m in panic mode and keep calling and texting him but he’s not responding

This is so infuriating

I don’t feel it right now ? I don’t know what to do

He’s still not replying and I’ve been trying the last hour and I’m just beside myself thinking he’s cheating

P stay strong! Try to do something that you enjoy.

God I hate this so much I really really hate this

I just want out of this relationship so badly

So move on

Do you need someone to talk to P?

Yeah I’m in serious panic mode

I don’t really want out but OCD is so strong and just battering me right now

What are you doing now? Can you go for a walk outside? Listen to music? Something to try to calm yourself down so you are not in full panic mode and can think more clearly

Smoking cigarettes ? until he called - I’m still panicking tho because there were several hours he was “unaccounted for”

And everytime this happens and he finally calls me back I’m exhausted and he just yells at me and says he can’t deal with being accused of this shit all the time ? I feel like a terrible gf and he’s right he doesn’t deserve this but at the same time I can’t not have ocd

I try using the app - I have it setup for these situations - I am just not strong enough to sit with it. I was having such a calm ocd-free day all day!! And in the end he has no explanation for not picking up the phone and he even saw I was panicking and refused to answer ?

I just talked to him and we broke up so problem solved ?

I am so sorry P. :(

It was inevitable - he said he can’t handle my ocd and he just gets pissed as all hell about it even tho I’ve tried to explain, my therapist has tried to explain - it doesn’t matter in the end b/c he doesn’t want to deal with it

He’s just waiting for me to “think about things” and come back and say “ok sweetheart I thought about it and I’m not going to have ocd anymore”...I’m trying but I guess not hard enough, so this is just another relationship I can add to the long list of ones that have been destroyed by my ocd

Also I just wanted to say that if there’s anything I can do to help you P I am genuinely here for you. There probably isn’t, but if there is, just lmk.

Thanks Pineapple. I am working hard on recovery. I’m not sure I can go any faster. Having someone to talk to helps. Maybe there’s a private chat app or smthn we can connect on?

Sure, what were you thinking?

Are there apps where we don’t need to give out our personal info? Talk/text? I’m so not hip with these things at my age

You could download a free texting app if you wanted to. It’ll give you a phone number you could post on here. I’d probably just text you from my real number because it’s easier for me, but I just don’t want to post my number on here lol.

Oh yeah they all cost monthly, lame!

Pineapple email me at pstoo@mailinator.com and let’s start there

WhatsApp should be free

Sure just email me your no at that burner email address :)

Then we can whatsapp

Pineapple can you email your number to that email address? That’s an inbox only email address so I can’t reply back to the email you just sent :-(