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- anonymousN
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I understand. I really do. Cause I'm in the exact same shoes as you basically. Gender identity ocd has me feeling exactly the same way lately and its terrifying. Every waking moment is a compulsive attempt to understand who I am for certain and its exhausting. I do understand. Also, where are you reading this thing about people saying they're bi to suppress gender dysphoria. I dont understand that. Its actually kind of triggering since I've identified as bi for a while in my adulthood. I dont see how that relates to gender dysphoria
I read it somewhere on google it was triggering for me too .
I had a short period where I felt as if I was gay. I obviously am not, but my ocd was telling me that I was. I had to remind myself that even though I was having these thoughts; I didn’t mean them. Just because you have thoughts doesn’t mean they are true or that you want them. If you know you do not want to be trans, gay, or anything along those lines, just let the thoughts be there. If you don’t mean them, then just sit with them. If you know you don’t want to be trans, the thoughts are not true.
I am having gender OCD right now, not sure if you are better now but I am freaking out. I am a woman but now I feel uncomfortable in my body and I'm always uneasy. Idk if I'm having really bad self confidence issues or what but I feel terrible. I'm always on the verge of a panic attack
Hi , I’m so so sorry you’re going through this I know it’s the absolute worse but I actually over came my gender identity ocd twice now :) I know you can do it too trust me . I thought I was really a man I couldn’t even look in the mirror without images of me being a boy. I was scared for my life but I’m better now thanks to the NOCD therapist and medication. Everyone is different and it might take longer for you to see the results but it does get better and I’m living proof ! You are loved and worthy of a happy life and if you ever need to talk I am here for you ❤️
I feel like I’ve lost my identity and I don’t even know who I am anymore. My OCD is saying I’m not a woman but I hate that. And I fear that it isn’t OCD, and that I just genuinely am trans or gender fluid or something. I just can’t accept that no matter how hard I try. All I want is to feel like myself again. Pronouns are a trigger for me and they’re literally EVERYWHERE. It’s just so difficult. In a way, I miss having harm OCD or existential OCD or even health OCD because atleast I was still me. But it isn’t fair to say that because as I was going through them, they were awful. The grass is always greener I guess. I’m just feeling a little bit hopeless and alone, because I don’t think ‘gender questioning’ is a very common theme.
I seriously have never thought about girls until now. It just never crossed my mind. I never liked or had feelings for a girl. And now that I’m constantly questioning everything and picturing everything. It just feels like I like it. It scares me, would I be happy with a girl ?? I don’t want to be with a girl but I feels like I do want this. It’s so confusing. I can’t tell whether this is actually ocd or I’m genuinely attracted to the same sex. I hate this so much !!! It’s like I just completely lost myself and questioned it so much I’ve just become lesbian but some things just don’t make sense. Why would I catch feelings for other boys? Never girls. I don’t know anymore. I’m happy with my boyfriend. Without these thoughts I’d be so good and so much more happy. Now I just don’t fucking know and this hurts so damn bad that I can’t just rest not one day. This is so damn stressful and hurtful to question your identity every single day. Sometimes I seriously just feel like I’m lesbian but I can’t seem to settle on that because I just can’t be. I want to just die. I hate what my mind is doing to me. I hate I have to go through these thoughts alone. I hate everything. I just want to crawl in a hole and never see anyone. I just want to hug my boyfriend and have my thoughts erased. I’ve thought too much and too deep I can’t stop. I’m crying from sadness because I don’t know what’s real anymore and I never in a million years thought this is something I’d have to deal with.
Guys no no no I just searched something up on the trans subreddit and I saw a meme saying “it’s probably just ocd” and I’m panicking again. I’m not even sure it’s ocd. I’ve questioned my gender before and I’ve been a tomboy since I was like 11. I even once TOLD SOMEONE I wanted to be a boy. I’m freaking out because this HAS to be denial at this point. I knew I shouldn’t have looked on the subreddit. I’m so DUMB. I hate this I’m freaking out my stomach has turned over. I don’t know what this is anymore. I’m getting over it but it also feels like I’m “accepting” that I’m trans. I don’t know what to do because I wanna be a girl!! I don’t wanna come out and transition and everything. If I look back at my early days of my tocd I feel like it’s word for word symptoms of OCD but I also feel like when I found out it was ocd my symptoms became more like ocd. I dont wanna accept I’m trans! I was doing quite well until I went on the subreddit! I’m so scared because I think it’s not ocd at this point. I HAVE to stop going on that stupid website. The only time I had “dysphoria” is disliking my boobs, but I remember in the early stages of puberty I was so excited to wear a bra. I’m so confused help please. I sometimes feel like I’m forcing myself to do compulsions because I just want to think it’s ocd. I’m so stupid WHY DID I GO ON REDDITT
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