Someone please help me . I’m so tired of this gender identity thing . I did a compulsion and googled gender dysphoria symptoms and I had a panic attack . One of the articles said that sometimes children with gender dysphoria say that they are bi to suppress that they are trans and I remember when I was little I did think that I liked girls once but then I got older and realized I don’t but now I just don’t know . I took a self assessment test to see if I have gender dysphoria and it says that I don’t but then idk if I was lying or not and when I see articles on symptoms of people with trans ocd I know it sound just like me and that being a man dosnt align with who I am but then I feel like I’m lying about that too . Then it’s what if I’m non bianary ? What if I get used to the thoughts and I start to actually be comfortable as a boy ? I feel like I can’t do anything , I can’t be a mom , I can’t be a gf , I can’t be a friend a daughter and can’t do anything . I feel defeated and sad . I don’t want to be trans but it feels like I have no choice and I can’t take that I will never know if this is ocd or who I really am and it’s starting to feel like this is who I am and it makes me sad . No one around me understands and I feel like I’m putting to much on my friends and family with all of this. I just want it to stop

Whatabtme

Date posted: 4y

I understand. I really do. Cause I'm in the exact same shoes as you basically. Gender identity ocd has me feeling exactly the same way lately and its terrifying. Every waking moment is a compulsive attempt to understand who I am for certain and its exhausting. I do understand. Also, where are you reading this thing about people saying they're bi to suppress gender dysphoria. I dont understand that. Its actually kind of triggering since I've identified as bi for a while in my adulthood. I dont see how that relates to gender dysphoria

anonymousN

Date posted: 4y

I read it somewhere on google it was triggering for me too .

Anthony

Date posted: 4y

I had a short period where I felt as if I was gay. I obviously am not, but my ocd was telling me that I was. I had to remind myself that even though I was having these thoughts; I didn’t mean them. Just because you have thoughts doesn’t mean they are true or that you want them. If you know you do not want to be trans, gay, or anything along those lines, just let the thoughts be there. If you don’t mean them, then just sit with them. If you know you don’t want to be trans, the thoughts are not true.

Annam9

Date posted: 4y

I am having gender OCD right now, not sure if you are better now but I am freaking out. I am a woman but now I feel uncomfortable in my body and I'm always uneasy. Idk if I'm having really bad self confidence issues or what but I feel terrible. I'm always on the verge of a panic attack

anonymousN

Date posted: 4y

Hi , I’m so so sorry you’re going through this I know it’s the absolute worse but I actually over came my gender identity ocd twice now :) I know you can do it too trust me . I thought I was really a man I couldn’t even look in the mirror without images of me being a boy. I was scared for my life but I’m better now thanks to the NOCD therapist and medication. Everyone is different and it might take longer for you to see the results but it does get better and I’m living proof ! You are loved and worthy of a happy life and if you ever need to talk I am here for you ❤️

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