This Sunday I am leaving for my first big trip since my ocd diagnosis. I have worked very hard to have recovered as well as I have since I first began struggling and I feel I am ready as this trip is only 4 hours by car. But I am still nervous something will go wrong and I’ll be so far from home where I feel safe and comfortable dealing with my obsessions. I also have panic disorder, but I have been on trips with that before, but this will be my first after the horrible period I went through with ocd. It will probably be very difficult at times but I’m going to try to cope and stay positive and make it a good trip. I just want to share this because I never thought this would ever again be a possibility for me. My ocd was so bad that I thought I might kill myself and not live to see another year of life. But here I am, standing much stronger and ready to challenge myself. I hope you all know that recovery is possible, even when it feels like it’s so bad no one can ever help you. I have been there.