I wanted to explain how my depersonalization feels so I don't know if anyone will understand so basically I feel as if I'm in someones head like a person or thought in someones head having her arms on top of her bended legs sitting down just watching and in my head I feel like :/ as I do things it feels as if my arms are doing them and as if I have no control over them as if they work on their own and when I see myself in the mirror I'll say is that me? Why do I look like that? Why do I look like a stranger? Is it that really me? I guess thats the best way I can explain it but I don't really feel it right now but when I do it feels like that. My derealization I can't remember how normal feels like so I can't tell if I'm already out of this feeling or if its still here? It might not be here anymore and maybe things look weird cause I play video games a lot and so when I go outside or look up everything looks bleh fake and weird.. Thats how it also happened last year around where we weren't allowed to go out I had gone out after a long time and as I was driving the outside looked so fake or felt fake then I remember seeing people come out of their vehicle and I wanted to ask them so bad if theh were real I felt as if they were fake... I felt different so I can't remember the exact feeling I just remember gagging cause I was nervous since I had barely gone out...

does anyone else get INTENSE derealization (it’s the worse for me when i wake up from a dream in the middle of the night) and it’s so bad that it genuinely feels like nothing is real, not even thoughts are real, consciousness is not real, what the heck are we doing on a floating ball in the middle of darkness?? i feel like im in a simulation or a dream. i hate it sm ive had it everyday for 5 years, but tbh im not surprised it hasn’t gotten better because I have gone through some traumatic things recently and have had bad mental health. hopefully it could get better soon idk.

I keep seeing coupled numbers or angel numbers and having dejvu and in my mind when I get constant Deja Vu which in my mind means something bad is about ti happen I have had it 6 times today 3 in the last hour and I honestly feel like I'm going insane whether its Deja Vu of the numbers it causes me to question every action I make. If I see the numbers or get Deja Vu it dictates my day and I can't live this way anymore. Everyone I try and talk to doesn't understand and there is no way I can ever tell anyone about my violent intrusive thoughts the one time I did my mother called the police. Sorry for the run-on sentences and if it doesn't flow right I'm just really struggling right now and have been for a long time and I just want help I'm scared of my own mind. Thank you for whoever answers this post just one person would sadly make my day.

i came out of it now i’m back in , what helps?