Xxara
- Date posted
- 3y ago
TulipwoodTulipwood
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I've had OCD since I was a child and I've only come to realize it this year. I don't think it matters how long you've had it as long as you get on the road to recovery. It's not irreversible, no such thing. Keep going!
XxaraXxara
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- 3y ago
i was 12 when i experienced HOCD for the first time and i thought it was some anxiety disorder then i got put on acid reflux pills bc my parents couldn’t get that it wasn’t a physical issue but something to do with my mentality. then it kept escalating throughout the years then it relaxed just a bit until i had my massive relapse a few days ago. this is genuinely the worst my ocd has ever been bc half of it is actual mistakes blended with ocd blended with confusion and stress and i had so much i had to do this summer. i had to finish my resume and look for university programs and get my drivers license but i see nothing in my future now
AnonymousAnonymous
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 3y ago
I feel this. My parents didn’t fully understand what was going on either. Just continue to know that the future is going to be bright. You don’t know when or what will happen, but be positive
DutchgirlDutchgirl
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- 3y ago
Me too…😔
lolocdlolocd
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- 3y ago
Ikr I feel the same. I had harm OCD when I was around 10. I was too young to recognise anything. It was went away I continued my school. But ever since I have been at home due to pandemic. I've had like ROCD. HOCD. TOCD and Harm OCD. Out of which hocd and tocd have and are still torturing me. I wish my mom had taken my to some professional 7 years back. My family has still not taken me to a therapist. I also feel I am doomed for life.
XxaraXxara
- Date posted
- 3y ago
exactly i was honestly doing okay until this summer and this past week specifically which just harped on every single aspect of my ocd that i’ve experienced, it’s debilitating
lolocdlolocd
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- 3y ago
@Xxara We're all on the same boat. We have no other option than to stay strong. Can't wait to see y'all and myself on the other side of this illness where we're finally living our lives happily. Good luck. ❤️
Anonymous Anonymous
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- 3y ago
I’ve had pretty severe ocd since I was five and I always knew I was overly paranoid and something was up but I didn’t realize it was definitely most likely ocd until I was about 12. I’m planning on going to a therapist this year for the first time and I know if I had gone a long time ago I would be in such a better place.
XxaraXxara
- Date posted
- 3y ago
exactly! looking back i was showing signs of severe ocd when i was like 8-9 but it didn’t start becoming serious until i was about 12 and even then i thought it was anxiety but i could’ve told my family doctor or anyone but i didn’t but i rlly wish i did yk?
DutchgirlDutchgirl
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- 3y ago
Sometimes I feel the same. But I then remind myself that I was doing the best that I could at the time…
XxaraXxara
- Date posted
- 3y ago
yup ur right. it’s just sad bc i could’ve prevented so much if i had gotten better help at that age
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