You know what kinda scares me.. Is feeling depressed.. Because what if I get depression and get help but not get better. - I also don't like the feeling of no motivation. - If I don't have motivation I get scared

Don’t be scared about the future. Take it day by day and hope you get better by time. Don’t rush it, and try your best not to worry about the future of your mental health unless necessary. Take your time, you got this!!

If you check out the post I just made a little ago, it may give some insight. Sometimes trying to be certain about things we cant have certainty over, just will lead to more feelings of unsafety. If you're always stuck in the future, you may not enjoy the present