when you have ocd, is it normal that you’ve had a specific ocd obsession for so long? i’ve had other ocd obsessions like real event and harm but they lasted very short however, my mind is still stuck in this one specific ocd obsession that i have. ive had it for 10 months i fear that this may never go away and i might be stuck like this and i have the worst symptoms for it. i feel ashamed and disgusted for having this specific ocd obsession for so long. please does anyone else experience this

I’m so scared I’ll be stuck in this forever soo soo scared

Im still searching about pure o ocd while I still look for a specialized therapist so that's why I'm asking the following thing lol Is normal to have months and/or years without an ocd episode? I noticed I had a considerable amount of episodes in all my living years but sometimes they took a year or a bit more than a year to appear, in worse scenarios I noticed the took just months to appear once again Is that normal? Im kinda feeling guilty about it because I notice some people live 24/7 with ocd since they are kids while my thing is more like, episodically, not 24/7 since I was born? My last episode started in August of last year and is still haunting me but I know people had it worsened since their earlier years of life

I feel I have HOCD FOR MORE THAN 10 years now. Basically all my ocd started since me and my husband started dating for real…. Will it ever go away? Will I ever be happy? Will I ever know? I don’t know… How long for you? Edit for me it’s more SO OCD cause I think I’m bisexual