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The way I see it; Homosexuality OCD would be, for example, finding someone of the same sex attractive and then trying to compulsively worry and prove in your head how you are much more attracted to the opposite sex; or some compulsion of the sort. I would say just being gay would imply more profound and persistent feelings such as love, butterflies, arousal, etc... Over the years.
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attraction should feel good primarily and it should feel like a ‘pull’ towards someone. if ur attraction is not making u feel good then there’s a high chance u could be mistaking anxiety for butterflies/attraction when in reality ur just anxious. this happened for me at least
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I’m a Christian too. I’ve definitely had all sorts of sexual attractions over the years. Some that are obviously wrong. God blessed me with a wife three years ago, who I fell in love with in a way I never knew. My advice would be to not try to figure “what you are”. There’s temptation and there’s desire; and there’s also fear and OCD. I don’t think it is worth trying to find out the “truth” about yourself because it isn’t so clearly one thing anyways… it’s a murky mixture of different thoughts and feelings on different days. Also, I have to celebrate God and say that I’ve personally experienced God changing the focus of my sexual desires.
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That is very insightful. It is something to think about. Thanks.
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Can sexual orientation ocd make you act on your fears and make you have same sex experiences ever and then after the experience realize that’s not what you are or want?
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I need too know that I'm not insane, really. I am 16 and for the past two weeks, this has been completely ruining my health and happiness. I only recently came out as a lesbian like 3 months ago after a lot of confusion about my attraction since I used to think I liked men. At first, I felt so sure that I liked women, but lately, I've been having these unwanted thoughts about the possibility of liking men. I never used to feel this way, but now, every time I look at a man, my brain obsessively fixates on it. It forces me to imagine kissing him, loving him, things I don’t want, and then tries to convince me that I do. It’s painful. The thought of this fills me with fear and anxiety, leading to panic attacks and breakdowns. I don’t want these thoughts. I hate them with every fiber of my being, but I’m terrified that one day I’ll act on them and somehow like it. I used to think I liked men, but back then, I was in a very unhealthy space in a time of escapism and something deeply parasocial. I’ve only ever liked the attention and validation a man could give me, but these experiences are somehow treated as further proof that I’m "bisexual." I’ve never been in a real relationship with anyone, which makes my brain constantly challenge me—telling me, “You don’t even know what love feels like.” It won’t shut up. It keeps obsessively trying to make me prove that I’m a lesbian, testing my reactions and questioning my certainty. Is this normal?
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As a lesbian with SO-OCD, I feel so helpless. It's truly exhausting because no one I know understands what I'm going through. The first response is always, "You're just confused" or "You don't have to know yet." But that's not the issue, I do know. I just never see any lesbians with SO-OCD so I feel so invalidated. These thoughts flood my brain constantly, forcing me to analyze my reactions to every man I see. I feel trapped in an endless cycle of "testing" myself, trying to prove that I don't like them. But my brain fights back, telling me I do want to love a man, making it feel real even though don't want it. It's terrifying. At this point, it's hard to even hold onto my identity as a lesbian because I'm so overwhelmed. I don't know if this is what real attraction is supposed to feel like, and that fear eats away at me. The truth is, when I think about being with a man, all I feel is disgust and fear-but my brain twists that into doubt. I hate it. I'm at the point where I'm scared I'm going to have to accept something I don't want because I don't know if this will ever go away. I miss who I was before all this.
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