If anyone wants to vent to me, you can <3

i want to vent but it’s not ocd related :-(

Ugh ok I’m so sick of this ocd shit and the groinals. The groinals are ALWAYS there and it makes me feel inhumane! I don’t want to be here because of it. Ugh!!

I took my stuff out of the dryer and the dryer smelled like wet socks...and so did a couple of the socks. I don't remember it smelling like that out of the washer. Now my head feels like everything smells and nothing was cleaned (I definitely put detergent in the washer and ran the washer. The clothes were even wet when I m I bed them to the dryer, so the clothes were washed). Now I'm afraid some of the clothes didn't get washed properly and contaminated the rest.

It’s hard struggling with this, it’s hard not feeling peace. It’s like it’s hijacking my faith but I know God is greater than my OCD. There is only one 3 letter person I worship and that is God not OCD. I struggle massively with scrupulosity and it has taken a toll on me, my family relationships and my emotional state. It’s so difficult but I can’t give up you know? I don’t want to ask for reassurance but if someone can give me a kind word of love or of grace, I would gladly appreciate it. Love you guys ❤️