I need someone to talk to quick. I prayed lying in bed yesterday , sort of like Forgivessness . I felt like I wasn’t taking it seriously and I’m scared that I have to pray again. I really don’t like praying.

Hi what is a compulsion? I have rocd, and I am scared that I have to pray again. I really don’t want to pray. I feel like Bc of I did not care enough, I have to pray again.

Hi what is a compulsion? I have rocd, and I am scared that I have to pray again. I really don’t want to pray. I feel like Bc of I did not care enough, I have to pray again. I’m scared bc nothing is going right for me today. I feel like that’s sign. I think I anger god again bc I asking if he wants me to do prayer again, heat me up bc I’m was sitting in the sun.

I’m scared bc when I was praying, I was trying to get in. Then I feel like I wasn’t trying hard enough or do enough bc I was lying in bed comfortably, using my half asleep brain to pray. I was not sorry and I didn’t have any feeling but I want to tell him that yesterday i disrespected him. And I’m scared that something will happen to me.

@drStrange.One.2678 Also I was kind of aroused while I was praying

Hi what is a compulsion? I have rocd, and I am scared that I have to pray again. I really don’t want to pray. I feel like Bc of I did not care enough, I have to pray again. I’m scared bc nothing is going right for me today. I think that’s a sign

@drStrange.One.2678 A compulsion is anything you do to temporarily make your anxiety/obsessive thought go away. But if you do the compulsion it’s going to keep coming back and get worse and worse and you’re going to end up praying all the time and have new compulsions and obsessions too. You have to accept the fact that you don’t know. Maybe it is a sign. Who cares? You can’t live your life just doing a bunch of shit you feel like you have to do just so you won’t be anxious for the moment. It’s not worth it.

@Anonymous I feel like it is, I feel like I have to pray again bc maybe not because of the ocd but bc I LET myself feel aroused during the last prayer.

@drStrange.One.2678 And that’s like a disrespectful

@drStrange.One.2678 Why does it matter if you were aroused. Why does it matter if you were “disrespectful.” First of all, you don’t really have that much control over getting aroused. If you’re thinking about not getting aroused you can become aroused. And I have a hard time believeing that God is so strict and awful that if I make a “mistake” during prayer than I am just horrible. I don’t believe in a God like that. And if God is really that strict then I can’t live up to those standards.

Nice to know that I am not alone