This TOCD is coming back again. And I did a few compulsions unknowingly. Tf is wrong with me 😭

Trust me I’m messed up too I feel u 😭🤚

Idk what to think anymore. Like a month back I wanted to be th most beautiful girl I was doing self care. Now it's completely different. This is all over my head I don't feel feminine enough. 😭

@lolocd There's a good chance your stress made it harder for you to do self care and that triggered the thought that it was correlated. I don't know the whole situation, but I'd say to allow yourself to change your view on self care from a feminine activity to a time to step away from the worry and have a healthy distraction.

@lolocd Same tho, i sometimes like to dress more masculine and if I feel confident dressing masculine I’m like “OMG DO I WANNA BE A BOY”

@carlie Thanks for this but my OCD was so bad lately I could hadly move out of bed and I had zero energy so I stopped everything. 😭 Now I just don't feel like doing anything like I have lost interest and that's why it's becoming like a proof

@lilywaffles Omg same I like baggy clothes cause they are so comfy and trendy literally everyone wear but mind is making me feel I need to get rid of my girly clothes. my mom brought a pretty dress for me today. I wore and felt so good for a while but then felt like I don't wanna be in that dress. My uncle's shirt was kept on a chair and my mind went like you want this. Whyyyyy :(

@lolocd Ocd sucks I hate it, like can I wear the clothes I want??

Nothing is wrong with YOU, you just have OCD! We get good at doing compulsions without noticing because it’s our brains’ way of trying to take care of ourselves efficiently. If you realize after the fact that you’ve done a compulsion, you can ALWAYS spoil the compulsion. For example, if you respond to a TOCD thought by trying to disprove it in your head, you can spoil that compulsion with a lean in like “that evidence doesn’t count, I’m probably just in denial.” I know it’s super difficult and frustrating when a theme comes back. The goal isn’t to make it go away completely, just to lessen its power over you over time. It will get so much better!