I'm kinda struggling in believing in God. I hardly went to chruch and I hardly understood it but I do believe someone very powerful created everything I don't believe things were built on their own. Like the start of everything I pretty sure there's a type of Powerful God who made it all happen. But it feels as if I'm lying to myself or forcing myself to believe well I've always believed that but I just think I'm forcing myself so nothing bad will happen to me cause If I stop believing then something bad will happen to me.