idk if this is an ocd thing?? but does anyone else ever get scared they're going to blurt out something awful, like the n word or something, while talking to someone or in a work meeting? like i would never say that word and i don't want to but i'm scared it's just going to come out of my mouth without me being able to control it.

Yup! I use to think the same while in a college class…like I would lose control and same something absurd or scream!

I’ve been that way before. I also had the worry, as a child, that thinking a word made me bad. I vividly remember not being able to say “hate” when I was four, and I thought that I hated something- so I ran upstairs to confess to my mom that I thought the word hate.

omg when I was like 11-12 my ocd theme was like almost being scared?? of "bad words." like i would constantly ask my mom if a word was a "bad word" or look words up to find out what it meant and I was like scared of saying or thinking of swear words or "bad words" lol

OCD will make us believe that just because we think something it means it’s true or that we are bad! I still have some of those today where my brain is trying to convince me to do a compulsion to get rid of the anxiety I have towards having negative thoughts towards myself

Yes! There was a period when I was so scared I'd accidentally blurt the N word even though I have literally never once in my life said that word