I know this is common but it's really been taking it's toll on me recently. that is the fear of faking it for attention. no matter how many times I remind myself I'm diagnosed and have been since I was 7. no matter how many times a day I have compulsions sometimes without even realizing. the intrusive thoughts and all the ways I am impacted by my ocd is never enough for me to fully say "hey I have ocd and struggle" without feeling immense guilt. I feel like I'm invalidating people who really struggle even though my rational brain knows I AM one of those people! God it's a helpless feeling sometimes and it brings a lot of anxiety.

I think OCD is involved in your thinking and by that I mean it's OCD telling you that you're faking. You aren't but you're fighting against your brain to convince yourself you're not. Try to let the thought go and say ok maybe I am faking it. Inside you know you're not and you're fighting a powerful adversary who knows right where to hit. 

thank you so much it means a lot, I'll give that a shot! 