I just woke up from the worst dream of my life. I feel disgusting.

I think that I have something dark and perverse in me, when I can imagine and feel such sensations without feeling disgust and panic...

i’m crying but i don’t deserve to i’ve had this thought before, my mom works and i stay home and clean and homeschool. lately i have not been doing my part and i understand why she’s upset. every time she gets upset with me she cries, and tells me how bad i hurt her. Also every time she’s upset with me, for some pathetic reason my head brings up when she hurt me as a child, she never really admitted to it but i think it’s because she doesn’t want to think about how bad she could’ve hurt me or brother. slowly im starting to realize how bad of a person i am, I’m a procrastinator and im lazy. i had a dream about us arguing, i said awful things, something’s i’ve never said before something’s i have out of anger and then i start crying. I think im a psycho, im crying so hard rn. i want to fix everything, why can’t i be different? in my dream i was mean and aggressive, and it scared me.

“Pocd” I’m probably out of it but I was having gronial responses yesterday and I was having urges and I went to sleep got intrusive dream and I feel something down there and now I’m wondering if I did something to my brother in my sleep What if I did????? I can’t go out like this I have to buy a camera I’m so worried like it makes me want to check myself to see if I’m still a v