I feel like I can't do this anymore. It's stronger again.

I did SO well yesterday, but here I am struggling again.

today again...erp and a strong feeling that it somehow arousel me and creates adrenaline, and the longer I expose myself to the thoughts, the more wild and detailed the images in my head become, accompanied by the feeling that I like reality as well...

So over all of this. Why do periods have to make everything so much worse. I keep thinking that I can get over an intrusive thought and then the next one comes in. My brain tries to make be obsess over something that i've already obsessed about and moved on from. Wish this could be over.