Hey guys, I really need some motivation to keep going right now. I have no hope that I could get better and I’m scared that I’ll have to live like this forever. And I’m too scared to get help.

You have to atleast attempt therapy it may be what saves your life and you'll never know unless you reach out. There's always hope.

it'll be okay, this is what ocd wants. you can do this. getting help is the best option hun