I carry so much grief in me because of how my OCD makes me focus so hard on all the negative in the world :(

Hey there. I would suggest practicing stoicism or taoism. I know it sounds weird but trust me it works wonders. It really helped to calm my SOCD down a lot

It focuses on the idea about what you can and cannot control. Basically the things that you cannot control, are the things you shouldn't worry about, for example if there is something wrong happening on the other side of the world, you can at max spread awareness about it, but you shouldn't be weighed down by the thought that it's continuing since there's not much you can do about it anyway

@Pratboi 604 What you CAN control and do however, is your actions a d tour thoughts regarding the world. That way you can control your own happiness and trust me, you deserve happiness, you are worthy since you are a person too. Have a nive day!