Hey, I haven’t been on here in a longgg time and this isn’t necessarily OCD related but I want to tell someone how I’m feeling in the hopes that maybe someone else sort of relates and then maybe we can talk? I don’t know, I’m just a little scared at the moment and could do with some comfort I guess. Ok so the best way to describe how I’m feeling is empty. I’m not sure that I actually feel emotions much anymore. I’m not happy or sad and it’s scaring me, but obviously at the same time it isn’t because the only proper emotions I’m experiencing right now are hopelessness and emptiness. I just want to be able to feel again and I really don’t want this to be a big problem. Does anyone know if it’s even possible for me to get my emotions back? Can I back to normal, although I’m not too sure how normal feels anymore, or how feeling feels anymore. Also, I’m not even sure if that is what’s going on with me. I can barely feel things but at the same time my brains like nah it’s probably nothing, you’ve just not got any reason to feel anything right now. I feel exhausted and without motivation everyday. Thank you to anyone who’s read this, I hope nobody relates but please tell me if you do. I just want to talk.

Hey everyone, I wanted to come on here today to just share this post because I’ve been struggling with this recently. I just wanna know if this is a common thing in relationship OCD. So last Friday me and my boyfriend had a conversation that was important, and my emotions were high and I got a little emotional about something he said and we had a long talk about it, the conversation went great and afterwards everything was okay. On Saturday I was so excited to see him after work and I was overflowing with feelings of happiness and excitement. Sunday was great and we stayed on FaceTime just enjoying the day together after he went home that morning, and then came Monday. I remember getting a thought like this, “What if I’m losing feelings for him and I’m just leading him on?” And even this thought, “I don’t really feel anything towards him right now, does that mean I fell out of love with him?” And then the anxiety came, I could literally feel myself breaking out in cold sweats and I could feel the pain in my chest after these thoughts crossed my mind. But what bothers me so much about this is on Saturday and Sunday I felt so content and happy with him and I was so happy and I didn’t have any anxiety whatsoever, and then Monday came, and I had those thoughts and I feel almost numb and I can’t feel anything else except the feelings of worry and fear and my anxiety has been at a all-time high and I keep feeling this pain of guilt and hurt in my chest and I just wanted to know if anyone else has experienced the same. Because personally one thing I hate is that one day I can be so happy and energetic and then the next day I can feel numb and feel absolutely nothing towards my boyfriend. I’m not sure if this can correlate with my menstrual cycle as well, but I’ve heard that that can also make your relationship OCD worse and cause you to feel differently about your partner. Just wanting to see if anyone has dealt with the same!

I haven’t posted here in a while but I just wanted to ask a question. While having ocd is it normal to have days when you don’t feel like talking to anyone even if you wanted to? I have felt this for a while and I can’t figure out why do I feel like that. Usually I’m a very talkative person and even when I don’t feel like talking to anyone I always talk to my boyfriend but now even talking to him feels like a burden and I just don’t understand why. This situation has also made my intrusive thoughts even worse:( Idk what to do and what to feel like, I’m feeling kind of empty and emotionless. I was diagnosed with ocd some months ago so I’m kind of new to all this stuff and that’s why I’m asking. I don’t want to ask questions in a compulsive way and I try very hard to avoid it if that makes any sense. I would be very grateful if someone could answer me:)

I am not sure if this is something that’s specific to ocd, but the ocd definitely has something to do with it if it’s not an ocd thing. Every emotion I feel (more specifically sadness, disappointment, etc.) feels like it’s amplified by 100000x. Any little thought that even makes me slightly let down literally makes me feel so upset to where I just want to lay in bed all day because I’m so bummed out. Here’s a recent example of this. This sounds so stupid I know but I recently went to a concert for a band that I have a lot of nostalgia tied to. I knew I would have a good time at the concert but i literally was in awe the entire time by all the emotion i felt and how good the concert, singing, performance and everything was. They even came so close to us and were singing there for about 20 minutes like within 20 feet of me (and I’m pretty sure one of them saw me but i might be delusional). in the moment i was literally just thinking like wow in this moment were here together like they could be anywhere in the world right now and here they are within 20 feet of my face. The point is I haven’t been able to stop with this hyper fixation on them and I can’t even look at my concert videos and looking at other peoples makes me so jealous and sad for some reason yet I can’t stop watching videos of them because it’s makes me so sad/so happy at the same time. I know people might say this is just post concert depression but this has gone way beyond that but this is typical for me to feel it this deeply like sick to my stomach. that’s a common thing for me where my hyper fixations sometimes make me sad where I just don’t wanna do anything except lay down and stare at the wall. this is very hard to explain and I hope it makes sense. This also could be a part of my depression but I’m not sure. Anyways please respond if you relate/have answers and sorry this is so long and wordy!💓