So today I was shopping with my grandma and we went to a crystal store. There was a table with different kinds of crystals and the cashier told me to buy the crystal that I thought felt right. My eyes landed on the Tree Agathe, a stone that gives you a feeling of warmth and safety. But I accosiated the green of the stone with my mom and was scared to buy it (I have incest OCD). I decided to ignore the compulsion to not buy it and I bought the crystal. And it really gives me a safe feeling but I'm still scared. Like the OCD voice says things like: 'The warmth you feel isn't normal love it means that u are in love with your mom.' and stuff like that and it scares me. I really loved this crystal but the second I wanted to buy it those thoughts started appearing. Is it normal that the love I feel for my mom feels like warmth in my chest? Or does that mean I'm in love? Someone help please!

So how would I know if it’s truly ocd or not? Like by accepting uncertainty, will I eventually realize if it was false or true attraction and if it was actually ocd or not? For example I was out today, right after my therapy appointment, I saw a kid that looked exactly like this girl my age that I was into. I felt a sense of attraction and I immediately went into the restroom to hide or smth I don’t remember, but when I came out I think I avoided looking at the kid. Idk if it was false attraction or not, I hope it was but I’m not sure. I can’t really tell. FYI I was never formally diagnosed with pocd before, but my therapist said that I have it but I still don’t believe it. I still feel like it’s not pocd because of the attraction feelings, I can’t tell if I like the feelings or not. I don’t feel any of panic, worry, distress, guilt or shame after any of those feelings. I did start crying when I got home tho idk why or what for, but I went to take a nap for a while and when I woke up it kind of became clearer if it was real or false attraction, but it’s still really unclear, I don’t get why I would feel that way towards a literal child, is it bc she looked like this girl my age that I was into? I hope it was false attraction, still can’t tell.

Lately, I’ve been kind of confused. I’m in a relationship with a person I’ve known for a long time. I also happen to deeply like two famous people I know. It’s like I’m extremely attached to them. All day I think about them. But it’s kind of weird, because I don’t spend all day thinking about my girlfriend. I love her, but it’s like these other two people are on my head all day. It makes me feel insanely horrible for being in a relationship. I feel so myself with thinking about those two, like I’m free from everything. I feel insanely guilty too. To the point it’s been causing depression, and this obsession of needing to know what’s wrong with me for this. It’s like I try to tell myself nothings wrong, but I feel so guilty. I just think about them all day, and not my girlfriend. It concerns me. I’m 15, I just turned 15 yesterday. And I always try to talk too my mom about this, but she always says the same shit. “I was like that at your age” but I’m not trying to say that. But like seriously I’m so confused about myself at this point I don’t even know what too do

Im 16 years old and female and up until very late last year and this year I’ve been having thought almost every day that I’m a pedophile or that I’m sexually attracted to or want a romantic relationship with child. I don’t know how to explain it and I don’t want judgment because I’m genuinely so scared and disgusted, but anytime I’m around children I feel my chest tighten, my body feels warm and it feels like I don’t know how to breathe. I sometimes get a groomer response but even then I don’t know if it’s a ground response or not. Also I tend to stare at children when I’m anywhere near them, I feel like if I don’t I’m a weirdo and if I don’t look at them it means I’m attracted to them which I guess could be POCD but I feel like I stare at them inappropriately. Not too long ago maybe three weeks ago I went to the park with my family and there were two girls in their swim suits and I was looking at their backsides and I felt really anxious and scared like I usually do but I felt so upset by looking at them that way and now I’m scared to go to pools or splash pads because every time I do I feel like I stare at them gross and I just feel so disgusted with myself. When I tell myself not to look I end up looking and then I stare. I feel better when I’m not around them but even then, I look back at what I saw earlier that day and I feel anxious again and then I look up what’s been happening and then I feel more worried it’s not OCD. My friends who have OCD say I might have it but I can’t get a therapist, I can’t talk to anyone I’m scared I’ll be put in jail and that I’m not a good person. I’ve never head thoughts like this until this year and near the end of last year and they come now? I don’t know what to do.