My main goal of trying to recover from OCD was so that I could start a family (my ocd fears just caused so much panic around having kids)
Now that I feel like I’ve got my anxiety more under control, now I’m afraid to take the dive because I have high blood pressure. 
Sometimes I feel like I can’t ever catch a break.

Don’t let anything stop you from what you want. Your ocd is trying to pick out anything that will discourage you. You’ll feel a lot better once you move past it

I agree, I mean, there are risks with HBP and pregnancy to not be ignored, however, my ocd tendencies are definitely fueling the fear around it

This has always helped me https://vm.tiktok.com/ZMRdYDwXJ/