I have this thing I used to hate having to question things that there was no answer to like philosophical questions I still do but instead I'll be like I don't know no one knows oh well but I've been getting more interested in science and things about the universe and space! Like it doesn't stress me out anymore I actually wanna know more! But it's starting to worry me that my harm ocd thoughts will become true and that I'll like them like these existential thoughts... I really don't wanna hurt anyone..