All I ever wanted was to be a good person, that’s why pocd is so debilitating to me

I can relate so much to this.  I don't have pocd but I do have moral ocd which is very hard for a very similar reason.

I’m so sorry :/ I hope we can get thru this 

I have moral OCD too! To me it is tricky because it is usually grouped with religious scrupulosity OCD and much of the advice and examples are skewed toward the religious aspect (I mean no disrespect towards religious OCD). Also, I have come to realize that (at least for me) the guilt and shame is as prevalent as the anxiety if not more so.