i rather feel anxiety than none at all /:

This is how I feel towards my harm ocd thoughts.. Like I rather feel extreme fear and anxiety with it than none at all

Dude its kinda the same thing on my end wtf. When i had strong anxiety i was extremely motivated to get through it. Now its all rumination, intrusive thoughts, obsessing, and worrying. Maybe we are misinterpreting this. Maybe we are closer to healing