Rachael U
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- 4y
SashaSasha
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
Meditation isn’t supposed to make things better. That’s a misconception. Meditation is supposed to allow you to have clarity and see your “gunk.” Imagine stepping into the ocean and observing what’s in the water. Imagine finally noticing all the gunk that has built up. All the trash and junk that’s been piling up. This is what happens when you meditate. You get to observe things that you don’t see most of the day because you are too busy distracting yourself. It’s not supposed to be calming, or relaxing. All it is, is seeing the truth. But something happens when you can sit in the gunk for a while. The gunk begins to naturally disappear. The act of mindfulness is incredibly powerful. It’s been taught from Buddhism, to Freudian, all the way to modern science. The more you notice, the more you allow your mind to naturally release trapped emotions and problems. Hence why it is a side effect not a cause of meditation. If you can be still and patient, the calmness will come. But don’t expect it. It’s not a tool for calmness, it’s a tool for acceptance and clarity
thesecondwolfthesecondwolf
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- 4y
Good way to put it. I never thought of it that way.
Rachael URachael U
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- 4y
I owe you an apology for those things I said. I’m sorry.
SashaSasha
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 4y
@Anonymous Apology for what? You didn’t do anything wrong
Maybe,MaybeNotMaybe,MaybeNot
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- 4y
Yes
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