I should get off here for the time being. I'm starting to get angry at other people for being more hopeful than me, or even for trying to help. I don't want to impede anyone else's progress. Also, when I click that "I WILL look for support while I practice ERP to get better," I'm pretty much lying.

Maybe you aren't, maybe you are impeding progress. I'd want you to stay here and see the program through though! People want to support you when they can :) Im having a miserable time of it with ocd too :( it's hard I know.

I try to find hopeful and positive things to say while I'm on here because I know how difficult this can be and I want to inspire others. That said...I had kind of an awful day yesterday. I feel exhausted right now, and there are plenty of times when I feel downright hopeless. Whatever you decide is up to you - I just hope you know that you're not alone in this, and that we got your back.