Sending you so much love and support. I dealt with this for a bit. It does get better.
I have felt this way too so many times. The treatment for this is behavioral. You need to decide to sit with thoughts and feelings, and then make yourself go do things that you value anyway. This will teach your brain that the thoughts and feelings are not important. If you give into them you are amplifying them.
I felt like this last year, thank God therapy was put in my life and I was able to move from where I thought I was stuck at mentally, I used to dread having dinner with my parents and ocd started to pull me from what I loved, God through therapy rescued me and realized that I lost way too much time I can't get back with my parents and once you realize how much you're losing by listening to ocd it's going to make you want to fight back and seek therapy, dare to say no to ocd to ignore the lies to starve it from compulsions, dare to live your life, ocd is a coward, God is on your side He loves you just as you are and He will never abandon you. Have faith. God bless you