Does anyone have bad self worth issues because of OCD? Lose feelings of worth? I can't describe how I feel right now. It's like a regretful numbness. I can't change the past, but compulsions always make the past present.

I do.  I know this illness or whatever you want to call it can only be done by me and no one else.  I feel like I’m just a bother    to everyone now and I’m not supposed to do this or that. 

I definitely do! I haven’t been able to look in the mirror recently. Even though deep down I know these thoughts have nothing to do with me. It just makes me feel awful anyways.

I relate to what you've said. I feel like I can't escape mistakes I've made and I worry that I've not only futher ruined my name for myself or if I've unintentionally caused harm.