Is there ocd or anxiety which when you say  or think one thing your mind tells you the opposite? Sometimes I feel like I pick on my wife and kids,who are the 3 loves of my life, i know what I really feel, but thoughts try to tell me otherwise? Someone please tell me if this is normal ocd or anxiety?

I’m not sure but it happens to me frequently 

OCD- it sounds like and intrusive thought 

I’ve always had a very active mind, it seems it never rests?

Yep. Just let the thoughts be there and stop feeding into them. It will get better if you do that.

Some times I’m fine for months and years, then the guilt  gets me. I love my family soo much the way society is, I think all my fears have made me think erratically 