Earlymockingjay
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- 4y
kmecroz85kmecroz85
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- 4y
Hey sweetie! So, I know this feeling through and through. You will never be your old self - BUT that's a good thing. You WILL make it through this, and by doing that you'll come out stronger. You will become an advocate for those around you suffering from these thoughts. You will shine your light to others and tell your story. You will take this experience and use it to enrich the lives of those around you. So while I know it's scary to have that feeling and wish you could go back, by the time this is over - you'll be way better than you were. I promise. The thoughts might not ever fully go away, but you will have control over it and you will master it. Jeremiah 29:11
EarlymockingjayEarlymockingjay
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Thank you 🙏
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