First I want to just share a reminder of something I’ve learned from therapists, which is that OCD is the pattern of behavior and the distress in response to your fears, not the content of your thoughts. So whether you are trans or not and regardless of how you feel about your gender, you’re still struggling with OCD
And treatment involves accepting that we can’t answer our feared question with 100% certainty (this is really hard for me and it sucks)
@jello86 BUT I wanted to share that once I became so obsessed with my boyfriend’s ex, thinking about their relationship and stalking her and assessing if she’s prettier than me, that I started to feel like I had feelings for her and that I was becoming obsessed with her and that I was really attracted to her. Weird things happen sometimes with OCD