every single theme i’ve ever had is just running through my mind right now and I feel like vomiting, I feel like im beyond help at this point

So many others have been in the same situation, myself included. No one is beyond help. Maybe we’ll never be 100% OCD-free, but wouldn’t feeling even 10% better and more able to focus on life be great? You deserve help and I wish you the best of luck!

I’ve been at the point where I couldn’t leave bed and would vomit every time I had to go somewhere cause of the thoughts. That was a year ago. Now I own my own house and have a steady job. Don’t ever let ocd put you in the dark. You are the only one that can really make the decisions not ocd