I’m scared that ERP won’t work because what if I just don’t have ocd

What would I do for ERP if my OCD says because I didn’t do something correctly or remember something I will have panic attacks that don’t end?

I’m thinking about doing erp but my ocd is so severe the thought of accepting my fears happening to me makes me sick to my stomach. I also believe in the power of my words and saying I accept this Bad thing will attract it into my life. I’m not sure what I should do🥲

Ero doesn't work. I don't understand why people always say use erp use erp. It doesn't work, ever. Sitting with anxiety doesn't work, nothing works. There is no dealing with ocd the only way to deal with it is rumination and getting reassurance. Erp doesn't work because it needs to work immediately. I dint have time to sit with anxiety and living with the thought I need the thoughts gone now. I'm a horrible person, I deserve nothing, I don't deserve friends, I'm awful horrible, I'm terrible. My ocd is right and I need to accept it. It never gets better. I will never recover