What do you do when you feel guilt in the back of your mind for no reason? Like it's just there waiting to create a reason.

I swear I think that’s what OCD does. Sits there looking for doubt and reasoning. Sometimes we probably feel uncomfortable because we’re anticipating anxiety because that’s always been our constant state. Try asking yourself “is there anything wrong in this present moment?” The answer is almost always no. Something to accept or deal with, maybe, but not a “problem.”

So true! It's always looking for the next thing to cause the anxiety, as if there is something wrong that I am yet to find out or remember. You're right, it's good to remind oneself that everything is okay and honestly has always been.

@Virumaa Yes! It’s like lurking there for something to attach to. It’s so disordered and weird. But it’s not our fault that our brain developed this disorder. Despite the fact that, like you said, everything has honestly always been fine.

I think of how my mind works in terms of worry and anxiety as a hole dug into the sand, that gets filled with water when the tide comes in. It doesn’t matter how often I bail out the hole, it’ll just fill right up again with water.

That's pretty accurate. The guilt is almost always there, I hope the hole stops existing.

@Virumaa Maybe the trick is to just accept that the hole might always fill up, but all we have to do is accept that and wait, and it will drain by itself when the tide goes out. In and out, all we have to do is observe

@Loomin That's how recovery works for sure, and at some point it pays off.

Yes, I simply think “oh god I’m such an awful horrible person and nobody likes me”. And sometimes that alone is convincing enough unfortunately