I’m going to babysit some kids later as ERP :O uggghh wish me luck

Hey, so I have POCD. I’m a teenager and can’t get a job. I want to make money by babysitting, but I’m scared. I don’t want to hurt any children and I want to be safe.

I’m thinking about doing erp but my ocd is so severe the thought of accepting my fears happening to me makes me sick to my stomach. I also believe in the power of my words and saying I accept this Bad thing will attract it into my life. I’m not sure what I should do🥲

I'm just laying here avoiding being an adult and wondering if during ERP the therapists are mean. Like, is it a "tough love" type of situation? That makes me anxious