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Hey, I know how you're feeling. When my body doesn't have an anxious feeling I can handle my intrusive thoughts. If I feel the least bit afraid - it's all of a sudden "omg it's real". I just want to let you know though, it's a lie. You'll have moments of clarity where you realize it's just a farce. It's trying to make you second guess yourself. Know who you are, hold on to that and know the anxiety will pass. Blessings! Jeremiah 29:11

I know, it sucks. I cried earlier tonight from an episode bc I'm just over this. But once that feeling happens I feel so empowered because I'm so much better than I was when I started this journey.

Yes that happens over time. You need to continue with recovery and stop trying to figure out if it’s “real”