I’m so stressed. I hate my job. My job is making me exhausted. They are overworking me especially since we are understaffed. Everyone is like you need a new job! And then ocd is like what if it’s just like this at a new job. What if you just don’t want to work? What if you won’t be happy? What if you just lose your mind right here? Because I just feel so overwhelmed and like it’s never going to get better even though I know it will. Ocd keeps trying several tactics to stay around. I’m slowly getting over my contamination/fear of being drugged ocd. And now it’s slipping into existential waters. Which honestly makes me feel even more hopeless

I knowwwwww the battle with what ifs. It's awful. I hate it. Honestly if OCD and What If thinking were a person, I'd tell it to ingest a bag of Richards. Anyhow - when I'm caught in my cycle of what if thinking - I think of what IS. That way it keeps me in the moment instead of future events and just made up crap for my brain. There is a chance that you could hate your next job, there is also a chance that you don't want to work. Also there is a chance you could lose your mind and go crazy. THERE IS ALSO A CHANCE YOU COULD GET HIT BY A METEOR RIGHT NOW READING THIS. However, just because there is a chance doesn't mean it will happen. That was really hard for me to grasp bc I have harm OCD directed towards my family. So doing erp and telling myself there is a chance of me acting on my fears was HORRIBLE for me. I got through it through and am so much better. Bottom line, everyone takes a chance when starting over - but life is too short to live miserably. Pray about the job change, have hope always. Speak truth to the lies that come and know everything will be okay. Jeremiah 29:11