I don't know if i have ocd. I'm trying to see if i do. I don't think i have compulsions other than constantly talking about my thoughts to my mom or boyfriend or going to Google or just telling myself no but then going well nene it's true. I keep feeling like I'm gonna go crazy. I'm looking for signs and i feel so hyperaware of my thoughts and i try to distract myself and it just doesn't work. I don't really have any count mechanisms so i just feel like I'm lost in my head and I'll eventually end up completely crazy.

I know this is hard, and I think that the best thing to do, is jus sit with whatever is causing you to feel this way. Uncertainty is not uncommon and either is how your feeling. So jus allow yourself to feel and sit with it. Reassurance isn't going to help. And jus remember that how you feel is ok. I hope this helps. ❤

I feel like Ive already gone crazy, im so stressed out and worried that I will never normal again

research and reassurance are both compulsions and a part of the disorder. It's called the doubting disorder for a reason! but I found that instead of trying to label what my condition is, I just identify with what I'm feeling, and if treatments help. ERP is helping me, OCD or not. You are welcome here, diagnosis or not!

Sounds like ocd to me but I'm not trained. But either way it doesn't matter. You can use ERP on anxiety aswell even if it's not clear cut ocd. I think the lines can be blurry but that's okay. If you don't feel well then that's your subjective view. A diagnosis isn't going to change that. Treatment is 😊