Hang in there buddy
It’s just so hard. It’s such a specific thought related to my theme and it won’t go away.
That’s how this works I’m struggling with both harm and existential OCD
I will tell you something, and you can take it or leave it. But there is an amazing reality that you might not know exists yet. The reality looks like this: you continue to have the thought, but you don’t care anymore. And you start to enjoy life again, even when the thought is present. Eventually the thought begins to disappear, but if it came back again it wouldn’t matter. You would still be happy and peaceful. This exists. It’s happened to me with thoughts that I thought would torture me for the rest of my life. The secret or not so secret truth, is you will get better once you accept this thought and don’t try to escape from it. Give it a chance to exist with you, and give it room. Nothing worse can happen if you just let it exist and you don’t give in to compulsions. Try it and see what magic comes your way
Me too it’s so hard, I feel so horrible
I feel this way tooo