why are the intrusive images so gross & disturbing i am so tired of this :(

ikr😭😭 whenever i get the absolutely awful images in my head i try to think of something happy which is for some reason hard to come up with on the spot but my therapist says to think of your happy place and i love to ice skate so i just imagine the sounds of the blades on the ice. thinking of the sounds and smells of my happy place is easier than visualizing it to me bc if i’m visualizing i always end up making it into something bad

I know they seem terrible, but the fact that you’re so resentful of having such gross and disturbing means you’re a good person. Your ocd is just attacking you on what you fear most. The only way to free yourself is to take a deep breath and face that fear. Let the thoughts run around your head until they get tired and feel less scary. You are an amazing, kind, strong, beautiful person and you will win! Believe me!