- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4y
It really is a relief to know we are not alone š
I am 59 I never knew it was so prevelant in our society
Every person Iāve seen commenting or making posts has been some of the most selfless and respectful people Iāve ever met. You are all truly admirable and deserve to get through whatever subtype of OCD youāre dealing with.
It kinda mind boggling to me how OCD can even cause stuff to happen to us physically as well. And it all feeling real. It only reminds me how flawed our bodies really are. If people were to hear of our situations they'd call us names and choose to stay ignorant. People fear what they cannot understand. Before this I could have possible have been one of them, but here I am. OCD really goes for anybody. Does not matter what ethnicity, religion, sexual orientation you are. It is a twisted disorder that likes to make others lives harder. If I were to tell myself before this that this would happen, I would'nt believe it. I was convinced I am evil, I cried for weeks. I had to sleep in my parents bedroom for a period of time cause I couldn't face the darkness alone. This application helped me greatly during this, cause I learned just as much about OCD as I did about myself. At the same time I get saddened cause I see people going through the exact same, or much worse. If any who come across this post have any questions for me, u can feel free to do so
I am FINALLY starting to (somewhat) recover from this last existential spiral, which admittedly, was probably the cruelest my OCD has ever been to me. Only thanks to you all. You were all able to provide me with kindness, understanding and support⦠without the kind of reassurance that feeds OCD, of course. When I downloaded this app, I was genuinely terrified. I was so scared that I was permanently doomed to the endless whirlpool that is the thoughts produced by my own brain and that life as I knew it was over, that I would never be happy again. For anyone who might be feeling that way right now, your OCD is LYING to you! Whatever you may be going through, it CAN get better. As hard as it may be right now, HAVE FAITH! Get up and do that thing you want to do in spite of the fear and discomfort. Take the fear with you like a whiny, unwilling toddler and do it anyway. Watch the movie, read the book, order that takeout youāve been craving, bake the cake, wash the dishes⦠Please do it anyway! It will be hard at first, I wonāt lie. But the OCD part of your brain, like a toxic partner, WANTS to win. It wants you to give up on those things that you love, all those things that make you happy so that thereās no space for anything but itself. Donāt let it win. The more you push yourself, the more you rewire your brain to realize that as much as it may feel like, the obsession doesnāt matter! Thanks to you all, even without therapy (YET - Iām starting that journey on Tuesday because thereās still a lot to unpack, and I know that OCD wonāt just magically go away), I was able to get a basic understanding of ERP and learning to sit with discomfort and how to live life in spite of it, rather than letting it take over my very being. So for that, I thank this community. I think I would be in a very different place right now if it werenāt for the people Iāve met here who truly understood my experiences. I hope you have a wonderful day. Please donāt give up. You deserve to be happy, no matter what your brain is telling you ā¤ļø
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