It feels so weird now. Like I'm not feeling that much anxious ness even though this theme makes me say my thoughts and also comes with feelings so it feels alot like me not the OCD. I feel like I'm faking everything! I don't know what to do anymore as I can't do therapy for many reasons.

Hi I can completely relate, one thing I've noticed having OCD most of my life you can get used to being in a constant state of anxiety, so you might feel almost immune to the things OCD throws at you by now that's why you feel less anxious but that being said OCD shouldnt be measured by the level of anxiety you feel because it can always get worse, its important not question your own diagnosis or wait to seek help just because you aren't on the verge of panick everyday, I know you said you can't get therapy right now which I'm sorry about but im always here and we're always for you to vent and get things out in the open! So please don't hesitate to use this as your safe place 💕

Feeling like you’re faking is actually an intrusive thought. OCD can pull the strings, so a particular thought may not be distressing to you any more, and your OCD has taken this as the perfect opportunity to feed you a brand new intrusive thought. So many people with OCD have the feeling that they’re faking