I just bought my first home. I know I should be grateful and happy that I can even accomplish such thing…. But I am so anxious about the move m, I’m freaking out. I keep having doubts about whether or not I made the right choice, if my family will be safe there, what if there’s some threat I don’t know about? I get frustrated because I know many people would just be grateful and excited to have a place to live but instead I’m sad, anxious and scared. I get so mad at myself and I don’t want to ruin it for my family…. This is so hard.

I felt exactly the same way when we bought our home. We'd rented and lived in a purchased condo before, but an actual house - such an adult responsibility!! I second guessed myself so many times between having our offer accepted and closing on the house. I kept thinking I'd made a terrible mistake and that my one bad decision would ruin our lives. I know I was supposed to be grateful for the opportunity to buy a home (and I was), but I was also anxious as heck! Years later, we're still in this house. Was it the best decision ever? Honestly, it's not perfect. The kitchen and closets are too small, the yard is a pain to keep up, etc. But there are also things I love about it. No downstairs or upstairs neighbors, more privacy, etc. Overall, I am glad we bought the house and moved. Nothing in life is perfect. There are always good points and not-so-good points. Give yourself some grace and let your feelings be what they are. I hope that things calm down for you and that you are able to enjoy at least part of the process. Sending good vibes your way. You're not the first or only person to have felt like this. I promise.

Thank you so much for your response! I’m going through it right now and just the thought of the house itself makes me anxious. Yesterday they gave us the keys and I couldn’t sleep last night. I’m just trying to take it one day at a time but some days are harder than others. (See, even typing that makes me feel terrible. Like how privileged am I that my biggest problem is that I bought a house! I feel so terrible for being ungrateful…) Thanks for the positive vibes!

Phew… home buying is a marathon, so you’re halfway there now! Anyone who makes it look easy is… only showing you the Photoshop version 😅 It’s totally reasonable to feel five hundred different ways about a move - moving (or renovating) is one of the most stressful things people can do 🙀 When thought #493 comes around, thought #78 will probably be right behind it… part of the package. Keep running, work that ERP, we’ll be standing on the sidewalks holding out Gatorade for you to grab as you go by 🧃